wow.I don't know when this blogger problem will be fixed. I cannot alter the text and font colour! So sian of this colour le, but nothing can be done. LoL. :P Okay lah, jiu make do with it okay? hahaha :P
I just wanna make some dedications here :)
Kelvin: Jie Fu!! Haha, thanks for showing concern to me, and listening to me ytd. I give credits to you wor. Touched right? Haha, it means a lot to me already. And one more thing, I'm strong! Don't need to go for counselling. Haha :P
Yeelin: Mama!! Thanks for being by my side, at my weakest point. Haha, i'm so very touched! I'm really happy and glad that I have you as my bestest and dearest friend. Thanks for standing by me, just like how I stand by you. It takes a lot of chemistry and faith to achieve that.:) Jia you too! Please remember to take good care of yourself. Your nu-er don't want to see you too tired, wo bu ren xin :) I treasure you :D
Mummy: Thanks for being with me all along. :) I've been a strong girl in front of you, and since young, you didn't really have to worry for me. Sorry for making you worried about me this time. I love you! :)
Mr Ong: No words can express what I really want to say to you now. Thanks for everything :) Your presence means alot to me; with you, I already feel that I had overcome my fear of the past memories. As long as you are with me, I have nothing to be afraid of le. Past memories inflicted an unforgottable hurt on me, but now I think I can learn to forget, and is now slowly forgetting le. Nothing matters more than the present and future :) Thanks, and..I love you :) I'm a happy happy person now! :)
To you(zx): Hmms, I had never thought that i will meet into you again, but actually I think it's for a good reason that you appeared again. Avoiding is not the down-to-earth solution after all; by facing up to it is the only way. Though it reminded me of the once hurtful memories, but it gave me a chance to face up to things that I never had the courage to. Now that, I have the courage to face up to my hurts; I am a happy person now. :) People matured through the process of growing up. Haha, actually I wouldn't think that it's totally your fault now. I had long forgiven :) I believe you are a mature person now. I guess, if I see you face-to-face one day, I'll be able to say Hi to you. To a certain extent, I should thank you, for giving me the life experience. It made me grow up in a way too. Though it may not be my fault, but, sorry for the past too :)
I confessed my love for BABY at
8:33 PM
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Tuesday, August 25, 2009
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why...why must a person who had hurt me so badly before, a person i wish i will never see again enter my life once again. what's worse, she enter my life through my dearest,who is so important to me.
The feeling of fear and nightmare seem to have come back. I feel so scared and helpless, really. Why must it be her out of so many people in this world. Why must it be the only person who had hurt me before intentionally...Actually what happened was in the young and ignorant times. It was only a misunderstanding, it may be only becuz of her little jealousy, but it became the nightmare of my life. The first time i felt human's heart is unpredictable, and how terrible rumours can be. It may already be the past, but i can never forget. Since it's a misunderstanding, which i can't say it's whose fault...I had long forgiven, but yea...forget is hard.
I remembered Yeeling once told me that she hoped i will never met into her again, so that no one can hurt me. Actually, i always believe that human is kind by nature. And time will make a person become more mature. Maybe from the start, she wasn't a bad person and I do believe that she is a better person now. However, the feeling of fear is just so terrible, and hard to cope with. And, i really didn't think i will have the chance to see her again.
I'm afraid, history will have a repeat of itself. I'm afraid of the hurts again. wo...zhen de pa.
Why....it's been so long since i cried out of fear. And so nan de, my tears flowed like a tap. I've become a strong person since the start of Poly, and this is the first time since Poly that my mum seen me so fragile. Perhaps, I am not strong....
Qing ai de, I only have a question for you. Will you believe in me, no matter what happen?
I confessed my love for BABY at
9:21 PM
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Friday, August 21, 2009
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Happy 1st month!!
20.08.09 marked the day of our first month. Thanks for everything in this one month, and we have many many more months and years to walk down together :)
Hand in hand, we walked through our first month and your first birthday with me. It's all so memorable in my heart, and...your hand is the only hand i want to hold in my life :) Actually, I really want to say thank you; thank you for loving me, and thank you for making me believe in love again; something i thought i will never be able to do again.
Qing ai de, iloveyou. :)
I confessed my love for BABY at
11:41 PM
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