I found the one, my love :) Haha, I guess people are right. Fate could just come anywhere and anytime, without any prior notice. It's weird how much I feel natural and xing fu with him; for this reason, i know he's the one. Understanding is a process, it needs time, and i will take my whole life time to understand. And a whole life time for me to love too, mr ong :)
It's my first, and i know it will be the last. 20.7.09, our journey begins :) I really wish to walk down the path of my life with you, till we grow old but still holding each other's hand. :)
薰衣草的花语是等待爱情，而我等到了。:)
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Wednesday, July 08, 2009
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Okay, a significant paragraph which i took from a book. I hope for readers who read this, can find courage to pursue what you really want, and have no regrets at all.没有任何一段等待是真的完全不要求的，希望自己能够一直在他的身边其实已经是一种要求。差别是，大多数的时候，是不是懂得清醒而已。然而，也没有什么样的爱情比明明互相喜欢的两个人却错过更可惜的。
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Monday, July 06, 2009
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Okay, pardon me for blogging in chinese again. I feel much more comfortable expressing myself in chinese, to issues pertaining to my true feelings. Well, after all, it's my best language. :)好，我看完了 <淡水，7度C>。故事的结局很美，那爱情也很美。那种把对方一直放在心上的感觉很美。其实，爱情是很美的，只不过它总是需要伤痛来衬托。
那个淡水的夜晚，我看着海想念着你。有时，我会想，如果那时的我知道我会在10天后失去你，我会怎么做? 其实，我想，我还是会静静的看着那片海，什么也不会做吧。那么美丽的海，不适合悲伤吧。
很难的，我昨天睡不着。我不知道为什么走到了客厅的窗户，原本只是想吹吹冷风，却让我发现了一件事。其实，你一直都离我很近，你只不过是在我的对面。我虽然知道你住哪里，却没想过从那片窗户看去，你就在那么近。也许曾经有，只是我忘了。那么近，却那么远。我终于明白，我想念你，多过我以为的。
你和我唯一的相片是在2006，过了很久，但我却觉得照片里开心微笑的你是最真实的你。你已经变了，可是至少照片里的你和我不会变吧。
我错过了你最爱我的时候...。
时光的交错，一切已经太迟了。我根本没有勇气见证你的幸福，所以别怪我不找你。明天是我的新开始，大学的开始。请你也祝福我吧。
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Sunday, July 05, 2009
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结束了让我忙碌的工作，我也终于有了机会放慢脚步，做我很喜欢却没时间做的事。
很久很久没有好好的看一本书了，其实我很喜欢看书，因为每一篇故事都能让我觉得有不同的意义，甚至爱情也有不同的角度。
最近，我走着走着，也不知道为什么就走到了图书馆。我想，我真的需要好好的找一本书来沉淀我这一阵子混乱的心情吧。看书的时候，我会觉得自己很平静，好像什么都不必去想，只要投入在故事里就好。我想我需要这样的平静。
看到了一本名叫 <淡水，7度> 的书，我觉得很喜欢。因为，我去过淡水，真的真的很喜欢这个地方。那里，真的很美。虽然那时候只在那里逛了两个小时，可是我对淡水一直很怀念。那里，确实让我影像很深刻。我觉得，自己很适合淡水这个地方。
淡水，有一片很美很美的海。它的夜景美得无法形容。淡水，温度很低，似乎总是弥漫着忧伤的气息，却让人觉得很舒服。我喜欢温度低的地方，因为喜欢冷风吹着自己的感觉。我怀念那忧伤的气息，因为那让我觉得我可以完全的做自己，不用再强颜欢笑，也不必装着坚强。虽然忧伤，可是那感觉并不窒息。忧伤中的舒服清澈，真的让我觉得好安心。那，好像是在对我说；悲伤之后，总会雨过天晴。
那本书，我目前只读了一半，可是我相信读完以后，我会更喜欢淡水，更喜欢在淡水的爱情故事。
我想，有一天我一定会再回到淡水，这个位于台北的美丽圣地。我希望能到渔人码头，去看那一座祝福着恋人的，情人桥。
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Wednesday, July 01, 2009
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Last day of work - 30/6/09To: My dearest children in LSH- OCBC Centre (Senior Toddlers)4 months of fun and sweet moments with you all, were really what made me so unbearable to leave. Though there were times when I felt hectic and tired, but your smiles and laughters never failed to brighten my mood. This is the best class I had been to, certainly. I really do feel much more happier in toddler class. I guess, I fell in love with your innocence. In your world, there's no such thing as hate and hidden mask. I love you so truly and you love me too. I would never forget the hugs and kisses that you all gave me. It is so sweet deep into the bottom of my heart. I guess, other than me teaching you, you all taught me precious things too, which of all true purity touches me the most. Zachary Leong, as all people knows, my favourite of all. What a pity, he was absent from school on my last day but I love him always. Chloe, my favourite girl; a girl who is forever so sweet, obedient and smart. She is one of those that everyone likes and I think, i will never forget her. Kesler, a boy who is so cute and sweet; I was extremely touched when he called me "teacher xinyi'. I went from seeing him a toddler who doesn't talk much to calling me "Teacher Xinyi". Yeah, although some of my todds can call me that now, I super adore him as he's the first one to have learnt my name. And many more....Ryan, Zachary.N, Annika, Xavier, Ethan, Reagan, Elgin, Abinaya, Crystal, Imman. I guess, when I come back during my next school holidays which will probably be next year, all of you would be promoted to N1 or N2. A new batch of toddlers will come in, but no, you all are the best toddlers I have been with. Lastly, Teacher Xinyi loves you all, and my love is forever. :)
To: My dearest teachers in Toddler Class, and Steph (Principal)My dearest teachers, it have been really fun working with you guys. I've learnt a lot, and I would never forget the moments where we cooperated so perfectly during busy and hectic periods. Our teamwork is wonderful. I miss working with you guys, taking the children for a walk around the area every morning, and bringing the children on field trips. All memories are certainly precious to me. Thank you so much for the photo-taking session on my last day. I was so touched when you gathered the toddlers to take photos with me; it was a simple action but it was simply just so touching. I mean, that was all i need on my last day. It was certainly a chore to gather 15 toddlers to take photos together, but you guys didn't mind the effort at all. I appreciated it a lot, really! Thanks so much, Corrinne for sending me the photos! Certainly very touched. I'd post the photos if i could, but I afraid i can't as there are children's faces which I don't think it's good to be exposed on net. :) Well, the photos serve for my own memorial sake, and I treasure :) Steph, i've known you since I was year 1. My supervisor for year 1 and, now the principal. Haha, simply a really nice person!! Do you know that, all your teachers enjoy working with you? You have been a great guidance to me :) From the bottom of my heart, I feel that you are the best principal i've ever known. I still remember at the completion of my year 1 practicum, you gave me and Eda each a chick doll, and you said that to you, we are like the chicks and you hope to see us grow to be better persons. I've always feel that, you are a very caring person :)Thanks for the bouquet of flowers that you gave me on my last day. You said to update you on my studies and, want me to do my best for it. I am really touched, though I didn't say. Hmms, I'm not one who can express myself thoroughly face to face a person. All I can say that day is "thanks thanks, okay" but no words can express my thanks. Once again, thank you very much. If there's time and opportunity, I will come back during my school holidays :)Thank you, to all my working partners and children. :)
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