Hello! Okay, i apologized for the lack of updates ehh. hehe, been too busy and lazy! well, i will just note down the significant events that had happened in this one month or so, as it will take me the whole night to type this entry, if i were to type out everything in details. =P hehe, forgive me ehh. A short update here, and photos will be uploaded once I have the time next week =)Okay, let's go!14/6/09 - Met up with my cousin Shimin to buy present for my baby niece Valerie. Bought a lovely photoframe and customised a card! whee! After that, Boy boy came to join us for lunch and went to visit baby again! Super cute!20/6/09- Valerie's first month party!! whee! Met up with Boy Boy and Shimin to Bugis as we need to get the banner for Valerie's party. Walked for a long time and finally we bought it, and it was super hot that day! Sweating like ><. Went back to Boy Boy's house and we proceeded to the venue at 3plus. Decorated the place and we sat down to slack =P. Hehe, of course many many photos were taken! I will upload soon! Valerie was the star that night, and I only got to carry her for a short while. haha. A simple but sweet party marked Valerie's first month. =)21/6/09 - Met up with Shimin to shop at Bugis. She wanted to get present for their anniversary, and this girl full of creative ideas ah. She bought underwear for him as a surprise present lol. We shopped at Bugis Street as she wanted to get a dress for the anniversary. I couldn't resist the temptations, and bought one top + one dress. =X Headed for dinner with parents after that =)23/6/09- Met up with Yeeling at Jurong Point for a sweet and simple dinner. Miss her really much, and as usual we chatted a lot =). I was told a really bad news about her, and it really shocked me. All I want to say is; Yeeling, you will be okay. I will be here with you, and everything will turn out fine! Oh ya, we shopped for Kaiqiu's present too. Bought a nice romper for her. Hehe, must wear ahh! :)25/6/09- Met up with Yeeling and Kaiqiu at Bugis for a short celebration. It's been a long time since we three went out together. A short celebration but we were happy happy! We dined at Ajisen Ramen. Hehe, super full. Dinner was great with updates and laughters, and we had fun exploring and taking photos with Yeeling's Samsung Pixon! Photos are all with her, waiting for her to upload on FB. :P We shopped at Bugis Street again, woahhh! I bought quite a lot ehh. Hehe, not only me, we all did =X. I bought one top, one flats and one shorts. heehee. 26/6/09 - Met up with Yeelin and Alicia for dinner. Since their school reopened, it had been hard meeting them as they have loads of assignments to complete. Girls, Jia you!! haha, yea we dined at MOS burger. Had fun updating and chatting. Alicia had to leave earlier as she had to go for a concert. Yeelin and me stayed to chat more, and we really talked non-stop! Love chatting with her, and time with her always passed so fast! Headed home then. =)27/6/09 - Met up with my two besties (Lin and Alicia) again. Yeelin recommended Astons @ Suntec, the food was nice and affordable but then, the waiting and serving them is soooo long!! I mean, 30mins for our meals to be served ehh. haha, but guess, i will still patronize there. Yeelin was late as she had alot to do at work. Poor girl. She only managed to join us at 8plus. Chatted quite abit, and the 2 of them looked really really tired. We went to Bugis to shop for present, and they are already closing!! At 10plus? I thought they will be opened till 11plus eh, I mean it's a place for youngsters mah. We quickly bought the present and headed home. Girls, thanks for this meet up though you two are stressed and busy with assignments. Meet up soon again yea? =)Okay, ended my updates till date. Let me update about the upcoming events.- Last day of work (30/6). I miss the todds already :(- SIM Enrolment Talk (3/7). I'm nervous about it already :(- Meet up with Yeeling for Kbox.- Meet up for lunch with Yeelin and Alicia in sch.- Meet up for shopping with Shimin.- More dramas and shopping!- School (3/8)Bye :)
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Sunday, June 07, 2009
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Okay, at this late night, I felt like blogging. So here I am. Hmms....this is the 4th week le. haha, why am i counting? Because i can't believe, how time flies and how i've been coping with it these few weeks. Four weeks. I can't remember how i have been living. Life, just how is life for me now. I do not actually know.Over the past 3 weeks, I am living my usual life, doing what i do usually. People who see me thinks I am no different from usual. But underneath me, I feel myself changing. I feel myself shutting from the world. Perhaps, the hurt is never something I can deal with. My heart has been heavy all along; the weight comes from the tears hidden. Until....he posted the song, Jue Ding from Fang Ya Xian on Facebook. The lyrics is so true to my/his heart that i felt it was really my last straw. My strong front broke down the minute I heard the song. All my emotions whirled up and I couldn't take it. That minute, I could feel what he was feeling when he told me he has a gf, something I couldn't feel it that time. Too blinded by hurt. And seriously, that hurt is even more painful than his confession. Because I finally understand his pain in leaving too, I finally truly understand how hard it is for him to let go too....I understand but I understand even clearer that I can't bear for him to leave. That sat night, I broke down. The next day, I was so closed up that I did not say a single word. I felt so painful that talking, even breathing is hard. I did not want to appear strong anymore; in a way i was really completely shattered. Totally defeated. He taught me to be strong yet teach me how it's like to be totally shattered now. If that's it, why taught me to be strong in the first place? Perhaps I am never strong, but becuz of him, i do my best to.But thanks for the fact that I met up with my dearest besties, Yeelin and Alicia on mon. After trying very hard, i told them what I'm feeling. At that point of time, I know they did not really know what to say to me. It's not something that can be said with words, but their accompany already made me felt much lighter. And i meant it, when i say light. That night when i reached home, I felt that I am alive once again, but as a new me. Realised a lot of things and overcame many overwhelming emotions. I've learnt to see things in a different way, thus I know that i'll be happier and stronger one day. To me, it's as though my attitude or perhaps life has went through a rebirth. After the complete broke down, which took me away, I revived again. I felt lighter, and finally feel that I can wish him with a smile. I know it's already something that I couldn't change, I can't reverse time....if it's the best for him now and future, i'm willing to accept. He's someone i will never stop worrying about, he's someone who i will never hate...but please promise me that if this is what you choose, please be happy....if not....i will really can't bear. I wouldn't say, I don't feel hurt anymore. I still do. When Alicia told me abt what his gf wrote in a note, I felt a tinge of pain. But now, in the pain, I felt consoled that he's living on well. I believe if one day I do see the both of them tgt, I will be able to smile and wish him. To You: It took me so long to realise one person in my heart; it's my regret but i hope it's not going to be yours if she can be your happiness =) Jia you! 一定要幸福，答应我. And please, treasure your happiness. I know both of us wouldn't stop caring for one another, but do not need to worry for me anymore. You taught me what is being strong, I will still do my best to achieve it now =) My happiness, I will get it one day too.
相约去年冬季街角的你脸上挂著笑意好配这天气玻璃窗倒映两个人靠近多美的一个情景经过一个四季所剩无几脸上湿的痕迹还擦不乾净窗前站的你和你的恋情幸福得多甜蜜决定不等了这个冬季手织的毛衣变成收藏品决定祝福了从没开始的爱情在心里决定不等了下个冬季寒冷的雨滴不会再忧郁记得再次相遇心早已经平静终於微笑了看著你不哭泣p.s: 我让你等得太累了吧。。。曾经太过年轻，我不知道什么才是对你最好的。现在，我相信你的选择是你认为对你最好的，所以我可以努力学会接受。我不会怪你，而且我也决定祝福了，从没开始的爱情在心里。
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