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Saturday, May 30, 2009
Y *180* Y


2个星期了...从那天你承认你的心里有着另外一个她到现在,已经2个星期了。其实,或许2个星期前,我是应该写出我的感受;但我没有办法......................第一次觉得,即使是要用写出的文字来我表达我的感受,都可以那么难,都可以那么无力.........我想,我真的没有办法用任何的方式说出我的痛,又会有人了解吗?....我知道不会,但是我想试一试用写出来吧,因为我真的快要受不了了。


这2个星期,在别人的眼里,或许可以说在所有人的眼里,我好像已经没事了,好像我很坚强....因为我没有崩溃。我还是让自己过着和平时没有不一样的生活,我努力的让自己活在现在.........甚至有一度我根本连哭都没有。哭不出的眼泪真的很痛,痛得最后也忘了怎么哭.........我是真的坚强吗? 如果是,我不会在打出这一篇的第一个字就有了想哭的冲动。坚强的理由只不过是自己骗自己,面对自己的时候,究竟是要坚强给谁看? 在别人告诉我 “你很坚强”,“你会是坚强的!”,其实我根本没办法相信。这一切,只不过是太伤的后遗症,也就是失去所有的感觉............................


在和你见面之前,我以为已经知道真相的我做好了准备,我以为我可以面对。你终于说出来了;我只能微笑着对你说 “很好啊,恭喜你”。那个微笑,我究竟已经在镜子面前练习多少次,为的就是不想在你面前掉泪。装着没事,我问起了你和她,没想到你所说的每个字竟然不是我能承受的。我依然笑着听你说,可是心早已不能呼吸。我甚至不知道我那2个小时是怎么过的,第一次和你在一起,我有了想快点离开的冲动。我送给你我从台湾带回来的礼物,那对我来说是最后一份礼物.........没想到你会告诉我,我慢了她一步,她早已经送过给你一样的。“你慢了她一步”,这句话真的好痛。那瞬间,我忘了怎么笑,却努力让自己有笑容。那看起来很丑吧....


在你一直逼问下,我告诉了你“他”和我的故事。你可知道,那到底有多痛!?! 我好像同时经历两把刀插在我心里。你什么也没说,可是我真的已经没有了呼吸的力量。你问,都没有再喜欢过人吗? 你还希望我说什么吗? 我拼命摇头说没有,其实也想否定对你的感觉,希望不要那么痛。我从来不知道和你在一起,会有那么让我窒息的时候。终于,我可以离开了。第一次,我向你挥了手说再见,其实或许已经是不见。虽然你没有说要离开我,我已经感到你走了好远。


我以为在面对你的时候,我没有哭就是没事了。可是,说了再见,我竟然就这样坐在那里,甚至当Alicia来找我时,我连站起来的力气都没有。坐在那里,无力得对她说,她却比我先流泪。是好朋友心疼的眼泪吧~我感动,也终于让我心痛的眼泪不受控制的留下。两个傻瓜坐在那里痛苦,看起来或许很傻,但谁也不能否定那是最好的朋友给的安慰。


你对我一直都很重要;甚至到现在也还是。我说过,你比爱情更重要。就算没有了爱情,你还是很重要的。只是,这一切都只能在我心里。我们是最好的朋友,到最后我们都不会失去什么。我们是最后的朋友;这个身份会永远陪你走下去。我只是上了一堂叫做“心痛”的课.... 你最想听到的是我对你的祝福吧,我知道,但是我那时面对你的时候真的真的根本说不出口。如果你必须要有我的祝福才能完整,那我说.....祝你幸福。


不要再叫我加油了,虽然我知道这是你们唯一能对我说的。很谢谢你们,也谢谢你们的陪伴,但是我真的已经没有力气再加油了。放心,未来的日子我会过得很好,我会过得很快乐,但是之后的我不会再一样了。我不会再是原本的我,因为原本的我已经不在了....




I confessed my love for BABY at 2:13 AM

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Friday, May 15, 2009
Y *179* Y


Thanks for breaking my heart at this moment.

Thanks for dealing me with this, when i'm supposed to be happy.

Thanks so much.


I know you may not want to hurt me, but you still did it and in the absolute wrong way.

I won't blame you; I can only blame my own stupidity to believe you and your feelings.

I shouldn't had; I can only blame myself for realising my feelings too late.

You could have told me the truth earlier; i wouldn't need to be in this situation so long.

If you think i'm too weak to accept your cruelness, you are so wrong.

I'm stronger than what you think.



I'm not angry that you have a new choice in your life; it's absolutely your right.

but, i'm DISAPPOINTED that you did not make the effort to let me know earlier.

I felt like such a fool, not knowing anything but yet doing so much stupidly.

I didn't want to hate you, for you are that important in my life.

But what you did is totally not acceptable to me, for now.



I know i wouldn't hate you, but for now, I won't look forward for you to contact me.

I don't want to see you, or hear from you.

You absolutely need not worry about me; I will be stronger than what I am now.



Thanks so much ahh, my dear friend.



I confessed my love for BABY at 12:10 AM

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Thursday, May 14, 2009
Y *178* Y


GRADUATION PHOTOS - 13/5/09
Yeelin, me, Alicia (Y^3)
Yeelin, me, Alicia (Y^3)
me and Yeelin
me and Alicia
Alicia and Yeelin
me and Cynthia
Joyce,me, Yeelin
Joyce, me, Yeelin
me and Daniel
Yeelin and Daniel
me and Boon Shuangme and Belinda
Boon Shuang and Belinda
me and yanyan
me and yanyan
me and Joyce
InfinitysSabrina and meYeelin and Edame and eda Dad, me, mum
Aunt, me, uncle
Graduation!Diploma Cert

















































































I confessed my love for BABY at 12:19 AM

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Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Y *177* Y


A day of mixed emotions. There are joy and of course, a tweeny bit of sadness to say goodbye to Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Yeah, today is the day of our graduation - HMS Graduation Day! Mummy, Daddy, Aunt and Uncle came to view my graduation ceremony, thanks a lot my love ones!


I started feeling nervous the moment I stepped on the stage, it felt so unrealistic but yet it was real. Shook hand with the director, received the scroll from her and proceeded to get my actual diploma certificate and transcript. All happened in just a few minutes, but behind all these was 3 years of hard work. The smile and glory on our faces was built from the tears we had in that 3 years.


I've finally graduated, no longer a polytechnic student. I'm embarking on to my university path, which certainly will be much much tougher than diploma. Haha, hoping for this day to come since year 3, yet when it finally came true, i did not actually wish to part. Okay, i did feel a bit like crying when viewing the video NP made for us. Hmms, graduation just always set me into the mood of crying, haha.


It felt nice to see my friends again! Took many photos with them!! Well, it's officially the last day. Infinitys, 3A01'09, ECH and NP, i will miss them all dearly! I still remember the first day I entered NP. I was with Joyce and Boon Shuang, as they are the first friends I knew in my class. We entered the school, not knowing what is ahead of us. All the unfamiliar faces set us into a uncertain situation, but eventually all of us became friends and closer friends. Infinitys is formed, and I've known Alicia, whom I am really grateful and glad to have known her. All made a big difference in my life. In a way, they are the important factors that mould me into who I am now. =)


I won't forget choing-ing projects with my groupmates, especially Yanyan, Joyce, Boon Shuang and Daniel (they were with me for the majority of assignments in NP). I won't forget the joking sessions with my group members, I won't forget working on the Action Research with my group members. I won't forget choing-ing project and encouraging each other online with Alicia till midnight. I won't forget the attachment period which most of us were at the peak, and we still gave our greatest encouragements to each other. I won't forget the class assignments we did together (Getz-p and more!) I won't forget chilling with Infinitys at Canteen 1, Canteen 2 and game room. I won't forget the meetings at Blk 52 and library. I won't forget the butter rice and sandwiches from Four Leaves. I won't forget 3A01. I won't forget so much so much......


Okay, just want to say, Happy Graduation to all ECH graduates! We made it to the end! All the best for your future endeavours. =)


Thanks Daniel for the disc, note and gift! Thanks Belinda for the gift! =)


I confessed my love for BABY at 11:53 PM

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Saturday, May 09, 2009
Y *176* Y


只想说......


放心吧,没事的。现阶段的坚强,无论是伪装还是真实也好,是在努力试着也好,都没有关系。不重要,因为总有一天都会没事的。相信,没事的。


只想说......


哭吧。从来都不觉得眼泪是脆弱的代表,因为相信哭过的天空更蔚蓝。放心的哭吧,
一切都会在哭过之后变得更美丽,变得更懂得坚强。相信,眼泪的存在是为了洗去悲伤。


只想说.......


加油吧! 不是不痛,只是痛得只想让一切回到平静。不是不想念,只是宁愿把想念永永远远留在心里。不是不提起,只是早已失去了提起的必要,因为它并不会改变什么,不会改变你心中的在乎。 对吧?


加油! 你会比从前快乐!


这是我要对炎亚纶说的话,也是对我自己说的。我心疼他,心疼我自己,但我知道我们都会没事的。


你希望我画下的是句点,还是逗点? 如果是句点,我想我准备好了,而你不需要心疼我。


I confessed my love for BABY at 3:47 AM

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Sunday, May 03, 2009
Y *175* Y


Hello people!! I'm back from Taiwan~wow 5 days passed in a blink of eyes! It was my first time traveling overseas with friends (Yeelin, Alicia and Qiu ting), and i just had to say it was GREAT! I enjoyed the company of my friends and Alicia's parents are so nice and funny! Alicia's parents are really good at walking, they can walk the whole day without complaints, and we, young people were so tired to walk!! Haha =P Haha, hmms, I will do update of the events in this post, and I will upload all my photos on FB! Haha, maybe my next post will be some really nice photos!! Do take a look ^^


27/4/09 - Monday


Reached Changi Airport at 6plus in the morning. Haha, Changi Airport is my favourite place in Singapore! Took the plane at 825am and reached Taipei at 1pm. The flight was cool! I watched two movies and listened to songs on the plane! Totally enjoying my time in the plane! After which, we checked in to the hotel - King International which was directly located at Xi Men Ding.
Had our first meal @ Ah Zong Mian Xian! It was ultra nice! Then, we shopped and shopped at Xi Men Ding! I love Xi Men Ding~~~nice place! And know what, the temp that night was only 19 degree! How cool! Thanks dad and mum for sending me off, and Thanks Marvin and Hansong for coming to the airport so early to send us off =)


28/4/08- Tuesday


Woke up in the morning at 830. We had our free breakfast at this restaurant called Taipei Milk King. Nice tuna sandwich and tea~~it was really nice! After that, we went Taipei 101! Another cool place. Flew up to 89th floor in 37 seconds! From the top view, Taipei looked really magnificant and nice! Everything appeared small~ Haha, and after Taipei 101, we went to shop at Wu Fen Pu! Everyone sure know about this famous shopping area right? Haha, over there, there are 1000+ shops!! Too many till we really didn't know what to buy! We were excited initially, but started to get tired and leg aches at the end! And after that, we took the train to Dan Shui! A really beautiful place! I love the night scene but too bad, my camera batt went flat and I couldn't take any photo! We shopped and ate there! Tried a few snacks, and yummmy!! I bought some food and cute baby clothes for my cousin over there!! =D After that, we took the train back to Xi Men, and we bought egg tarts from KFC! Yes! their KFC sold egg tarts! cool right? It was ultra nice! I missssss lahhh! Then, back to hotel! Alicia, Yeelin and me had a nice pillow talk before we slept =)


29/4/09 - Wednesday


It was a one day tour! Oh ya, Alicia's friends came to Taiwan on Tuesday so we went on the one day tour together! How cool right? We were actually under the same agency and stayed in the same hotel! Hmms, the day started with our nice breakfast again, and we took the bus to Zhong Zheng Memorial Hall! Took photos over there only, as we had limited time. After that, we went to the Yuan Shan Da Fan Dian which was built by Song Mei Ling. A nice place, and we were also only allowed to take photos over there! The wind was so strong that, all our photos were taken in messy hair!! Then, we took an hour to travel to Jiu Fen! It is a very special place, and we bought local food over there! Nice nice! Yeelin, Qiu Ting and me actually bought a big box! Shopped around there for an hour.


Then, we proceeded to a place called Ye Liu! wow, the place is seriously great! we saw stones that have funny shapes and really really beautiful sea! Seriously, the pictures can't capture its beauty! I saw the famous Queen Head as well! The wind was super strong that Yeelin and me felt that we would be blown away! Again, our hair was super messy in the photos! After that, went to a place that sells Tian Lu. Then, we went to Hot Spring! It was soooo coool! Alicia, Yeelin and me shared one room and we chatted there! It was so comfortable that I think we slept really well that night! =P After that, we went to Shilin Market! It is another best shopping area! we were so fascinated by the things they have over there! Shopped shoppped shopped till we dropped, and we went back to our hotel!


Reached hotel at around 12am, so we sang Yeelin a birthday song and
took photos! Haha, after sleepy Alicia and Qiu ting went back to their room, I passed Yeelin the handmade scrapbook that I did for her and specially brought over to Taiwan so that she can receive on her actual day! Haha happy that she like it, and Lin, hope you did enjoyed ur birthday as it was ur first birthday overseas! =)


30/4/09 - Thursday

Went to the Long Shan Shi, a famous temple in Taipei. It has a history of 200 years! Cool place. Explored there for around 1 hour, and we took train to Xin Dian. We went to Bi Tan, and it has really beautiful scenery too! And know what? For people who watched Er Zuo Ju Zhi Wen would know that it is the shooting scene for the show! wow so cool lorh! I actually went to their shooting scene, the place where Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin dated and married! After that, we had our lunch at this place which sells really good dumplings and soya bean milk! Then, we went to Wu Fen Pu again! Actually, we went there just to pass time, as we wanted to go Shilin Market which is not opened so early. Shopped there for around 2 hours, and we went Shilin. Again, shopped till we dropped!


After that, we went back to hotel as Yeelin intially needed to collect her mua chee at 10pm! we bought A Zong Mian Xian and egg tarts for our dinner, well last night to try them! The 4 of us stayed in our hotel room and watched shows on Channel V like Hei Se Hui, Circus Action and Bang Bang Tang! My favourite shows; I watch them everyday! Think they kinda enjoyed the shows too =) Then we packed our luggage and it was like too many stuffs! Bought a lot for myself and for people! So much! haha, I spent a big bomb there, but it was all worth it! Money can't buy happiness, it doesn't matter spending a bit more but we are happy!! haha thanks Qiu Ting for helping me to pack! She's really a packing luggage expert! haha =P


1/5/09- Friday


Our last day in Taipei! So sad, we did our last shopping in Xi Men Ding! Managed to get couple of stuffs which I didn't managed to get them in the past few days! Am glad that I finally got them! Then, we took the van to Taipei Airport and spent our time in Starbucks Coffee! Tried the Caramel Frappucino that Qiu Ting recommended! Nice! Took the plane at 330pm and reached Singapore at around 8pm! That mark the end of my Taiwan trip!


Haha, I really love the freedom and carefree feeling over there! haha but didn't see my da dong over there =(. haha but i miss there already! I want to go overseas with my friends again! Haha, let's plan one soon! Alicia and me were already thinking of going overseas once a year together! Cool idea~ I can't wait! Haha, a part of me seem to be still in Taiwan. Miss everything over there! Anyway, thanks Alicia's parents for bringing us around!! =)


Overall, TAIWAN is a NICE place!!



And I dread the idea of going back to work again =(



Bye~


I confessed my love for BABY at 3:51 AM

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