其实我很久以前就很想写下这一篇的，只是我不知道应该怎么写下我的心情。
我在你心中重要吗? 我从来不需要怀疑这一点，就像你从来也不用怀疑你在我心中的位置。
对彼此，我们都是重要的，只是很可惜我们都变了。
小学时候，你每一天都会陪我回家，每一天都会打电话给我和我聊天；
好像在那段时间里我的每一天都不曾没有你，而我也存在你的每一天。
那时候，即使太年轻，我们都知道我们是彼此需要。
中学时候，是我们开始明白什么是爱情的时候。你对我的眼神开始有了爱情的成分；
虽然我们不常联络，可是每一次看见你，你都依然温柔，即使我爱的不是你。。。
对我来说，你比爱情更重要，所以不管发生什么事，我都是第一个找你。。。
那时候，即使太年轻，我们都知道我们是彼此依赖。
直到毕业后，我们几乎没有再联络。两年的时间，我们缺席彼此的生命。
渐渐习惯没有彼此，渐渐忘记当初的依赖。。。我们似乎也注定要错过。
直到现在，我也终于明白我们都长大了，我们都懂得怎么去独立生活。
看不见你，看不见我，我们依然可以生活得很好，我们习惯着没有彼此。。。
终于，我明白你不再需要我。。。
终于，你将只是永远在我心中。。
终于，我。。。要走了。
你知道吗? 两年前，我为了他整整哭了3天，每一首歌都有魔力让我流泪
可是，哭完之后，我对他是彻底放弃了。。。
两年后，我为了你哭了1天，一样的听着的每一首歌都有魔力让我流泪
同样的心痛，同样的眼泪；
我知道，这一次我也许是彻底的放弃了。。。
不要问为什么我只为你哭一天，那是因为我真的没有眼泪了。
心都碎了，你还希望我为什么而哭吗?
历史不断重演，我好累。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
你知道吗? 看着你的那一天，我不再有紧张的感觉，好像你真的就只是我的好朋友。
一切对我来说都很平静，好像回到了我没有喜欢你的时候。。。。一切都是平静的。
当我知道我很有可能是放下了你的时候，我的感觉除了心痛，更多的竟然是‘轻松’!
这样也好，因为我已经分不清你是友情，还是错过的爱情。。。。
再见! 我最重要的朋友，相信你永远都是我的好朋友，相信你永远都是对我最重要的。
一起长大的约定，那样真心；我陪你走到了你的20岁。其实如果可以，我也真的希望。。。
我可以陪你走过更多的20年。
可是也许。。。
大学时候，我们一切重新开始。。。。
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Sunday, April 12, 2009
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BEWARE OF LONG POST!!!Okay, I have made my payments to SIM today~ my cousins and mummy pei me go, haha and was so shocked to see so many people at the counter waiting for their turns to make payment for UOL! So actually, there are still a lot of people who had applied for UOL despite their high level of difficulty. Anyway, my place in SIM is confirmed! Yay!! Basically, I am a student of University of London - Bachelor in Management now, should everything went smoothly!
Asked the person about the procedures that I need to go through if I choose to transfer to RMIT should they accept me, and it really gave me a BIG headache. There's so much complicated stuffs I would have to do, if i want to transfer to RMIT when I am enrolled into UOL now. Woah, headache lah! My cousin said they deliberately make transfer to another insituition (although it's both within SIM) so hard and complicated, so that people will not choose to transfer, lols. Haha, I am already thinking of just staying on in UOL since I am enrolled in it now. I hate the thought of going through so much hassle and pain to transfer to RMIT!
Well, univerisity enrolment drained my energy! I really only wish to just go through it once! Actually, I should have confidence in myself! Although UOL is tough, I should not be beaten down at the very first step! I should believe in myself that I can do it, since i'm full time! I can do it derh!! haha at the thought of this, I'm not that scared of studying in UOL now. Perhaps ultimately, I will still choose to stay on =) Shall see how bah. =)
And most importantly....Congrats to myself!!! You really have to work hard for yourself now! =)
After making payments to SIM, we went to Ngee Ann because my younger cousin want to look for the location where she will be having her HMS camp next monday. haha, she is in Early Childhood Education too. Follow my footstep, haha. Anyway, we went to eat at Makan place and walked around at NP. It brought back memories, and suddenly I realised I actually miss NP quite a lot. Graduation ceremony is coming, looking at the convention hall, I had the feel that I might cry that day, It's just amazing at the fact that we actually survived through the torturous 3 years! It's both touching and sad at the same time.
Just wanna say.....BYE NGEE ANN! THANKS NGEE ANN! You gave me the opportunity to mature and grow up! I have learnt a lot of beneficial things that determine who i am today, Looking back, I am definitely different from who I was before i came in. I will still continue to learn and grow up in another chapter of my life =)
Hmms, okay back on the update! After NP, went to Tiong Bahru Plaza POSB Bank to get a bank draft to pay to UOL in pounds! WoW...56 pounds equivalent to SG 135 bucks! Immediately deduct 135 from my a/c~~so heartpain!! Although I will be reimbursed by my mum soon, but it just sucks to see my money decreasing when actually I am working so damnnnnn hard!! when will my pay come in lah!! In one day, inclusive of fee payments, close to 5000 bucks fly away~~~
Well, after that went to Bugis with my cousins to get their stuffs and later proceeded to Plaza Singapura to look for stuffs and ultimately bought a cake there for my little cousin's birthday! I did have a share worh! It rained so heavily that we had to take a cab home! haha, had a little celebration for him, and I had to say Macha Macha Cake from Breadtalk is not bad! It's green tea + red bean flavour, quite nice. Suitable for people who love to take sweet food =D
Done so much things in a day....which means I am really tired now! Okay, shall end off now! NIGHTS!! Take Care pple!
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Friday, April 10, 2009
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Hello! Haha, many people had been saying i'm not updating! haha, I guess I'm really so lazzzzy that people had to keep reminding me that my blog has been left aside for sooo long! haha, okay lah, I have a lot to update on as well! April and May seem to be very eventful!Hmms, first of all, my taiwan trip with Alicia and Yeelin is confirmed! We are leaving on the 27 April and back on the 1 May! It's paid and confirmed! 700+, but I think it's worth it, cuz i'm going with my besties! Haha, my grad trip! The flight is super early, but I am so excited!! Seriously can't wait for it!! =D I can forsee I would come back with full luggage, I am so going to buy buy buy there! It's my real holidays!! =PHaha, been really busy with work these days. Seriously, working 9 hours everyday at childcare is really not easy. But being an assistant teacher is certainly much more relaxed than a teacher, so I am really okay with my job. Just that it gets really tiring at times, becuz it requires full concentration and attention. No mistake is allowed. I love my children really! So adorable and lovely! Zachary, Chloe, Reagan, Kesler...muacks!! They will be the most unbearable love of mine when I leave bah =P But one good news is that, I'm on leave from 20th april to 5 May! one week for my rest, and one week for Taiwan! I can finally go on a real holidays and rest properly, ever since the unofficial grad!!20 April! Please come faster, would you?? =)Okay, another big news~ I've been provisionally accepted into SIM- University of London, Management course! Still need to go through some really complicated procedures to RELC but it shouldn't be a problem. The place is basically secured. Haha I need to pay a fee close to $5000 to SIM tmr to confirm my place, so ex!! But at least, I have a place in uni now =). UOL is so early, I am told that i would only get notification at early may but I received their letter at end March! haha but it's good news too! Yup, I am enrolled into the Management course, but after a talk with my cousin, I feel that Accountancy is a better path for me. Will try to transfer at the later part when they open for transfer =) Anyway, I did applied for RMIT- Accountancy too. RMIT is an australia university partnered in SIM. Still waiting for their notification in June =) Shall see how it goes. If given both UOL and RMIT, I will choose RMIT because UOL is 100% exam based. I wonder if I am up to it, but no matter where am I, I know I am going to do my very best and will come to the very end, like how I survived through the ech course! =) Let's rejoice for me getting into UOL now! Yeah!!Hmms....okay, one last big news!! my graduation ceremony is on the 13 May! Woah, my poly life is officially coming to an end on this day! It's 3 years, 3 long years.....I am so gonna miss my friends! My parents are coming to the ceremony to witness this milestone of my life...and you =) You made me a promise that you will come, and you would never know how touched I felt then. I know it may be hard for you to come, but no matter if you will attend that day, your promise had already meant everything. Thanks =)P.S: Sorry for this long and naggy post!
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