Sunday, November 23, 2008
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Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle
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I will marry 5. |
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After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Taiwan in our fabulous House. |
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We will have 7 kid(s) together. |
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Our family will zoom around in a Pink Mini Cooper (red). |
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I will spend my days as a Administrative, and live happily ever after. |
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I confessed my love for BABY at
10:39 PM
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Wednesday, November 19, 2008
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I should be sleeping at this wee hour of 3am. I should be sleeping to be prepared for the pre-test tmr. I should be sleeping to wake up at 9 tmr. So many "I should...", but I am not. Writing, is the thing I am most proud of because I always believed that only through words, I am able to reveal my truest feeling for I am never one that can speaks well. Through writing, I see my true self....and only the words I wrote touches people. But now, I find it so hard to pen down my feelings, even typing on msn seems such a chore to me.Something unpleasant happened just now; it was not on deliberate but it still causes unhappiness. WHY only unhappy things come to me....I know the planning is frustrating and I'm the only one out of the four to be here on msn; I don't seem to fit when we are a group. I wanted to comfort Lin but I could say nothing. Nothing....I didn't know what to say. I feel bad, and I feel sad. I lost my ability to speak out, and now I am losing my ability to write as well. This shouldn't be happening. Nevertheless, I hopes tmr will turn out to be a nice day despite all the unpleasant stuffs. ......I shall end here. My post is getting shorter huh. LOL, to myself.P.S: Yeeling, I really miss you so much. Today's meet up was a nice one. Your company makes me feel so much at ease. Thanks for letting me believe that true friendship really exists in this world. I have a really true friendship that has no doubts with you. 7 years ago, we met and became the bestest friends. Now, we are all grown up and things may change. But, the true belief that was established 7 years ago remains still and may it be forever.
I confessed my love for BABY at
3:00 AM
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008
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Hihi, I had been reminded by people that my blog was not updated for a very long time. Yeah, I do remember my blog, but just that I don't know what to update on. Busy with assignment is part of the reason; but not totally. Life is very monotonous for now; I don't even feel any emotions now. Just empty and emptier. Everyday go school and go home with the same emotion throughout. Sooner or later, I'll become someone who is so calm abt everything.I know people will say "hey, why so emo? why like this?" haha, exactly i don't know why either. It's really not what I wanted; I tried to be high or act high, but it always doesn't last. I want to be high too, but what's the purpose for appearing high if you actually are not? Haiyo!! I wanna be happy, I need to be happy....but looking at the mirror, it tells myself "you are smiling, but your heart isn't". Sad isn't it? But that's life. I know you ought and have the responsibility to make your life happier, but....I don't know how to right now. Anyway, life isn't bad, life is going on pretty well...just not on the emotions part.For this period of time, I kept having this feeling that I'm gonna lose my control of emotions very soon. Each time, I got myself to cool down and control control! Sorry friends, if ever on msn, I complaint abt this and that, thanks for listening though. Too much have been happening these few years, so much so that I'm becoming a changed person. A change that couldn't be revert. I missed someone who's important a few years ago, and it was a wrong decision back then. I let him go, hurt him so badly....but i thought it was for his own good. This decision made the both of us so tong ku now....not knowing each other's thoughts, not knowing how to express. Everything is unsaid and unknown. I know it's my fault back then, but why should i suffer all these so terribly now. I let you go particularly because I wanted the best for you, but now it seems like I deserved to be hurt. Seriously...this can't be carrying on. Enough of this guessing game, would you? Just tell me, what do you actually want? If you said you don't need me, this can end here. I need a new start, really.And one more thing, alicia is not going to be on msn or blogging for dunnoe how long. I understand what she's feeling now; she needs a break for all these. Sometimes I feel like maybe I should take a break from all internet communication too, but her absence made me felt more lost. One less person to turn to now. Alicia, please come back!!And thanks, yeelin for just being here. I know sometimes my emotionless feeling sian-ed you, but haha, I'm really happy happy to have you. Your presence always made me feel much better; really...just the presence alone works. Thanks lots, mama!Yi, you need to be strong and survive through this semester! I hope one day, you will find back all your emotions, all the things that worth u being happy about, and all the things about yourself! Jia you!
I confessed my love for BABY at
10:51 PM
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