Tuesday, September 16, 2008
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Hi pple! Hmms...i can forsee that this will be quite an emo post, which i think it's just a channel for me to vent out my feelings. Okays....Just finished helping and attending my cousin's wedding last sat. It's a beautiful night full of love, and this night I thought through alot and alot. Alot of past memories flashed by me, and this includes you. Between you and me, we walked through the happiness and sadness, I know that I wouldn't forget you.But the fact is when I realised your love, you were already not by my side. You are walking on to another path of your life, walking so fast and leaving me behind. From the beginning, I'm always the one who's waiting, even so it was for the another him. I am already so much used to the feeling of waiting, that waiting for you is not an issue. 1 year is not an issue to me, but you do not know what I had went through. I had never told you, but that does not mean it had never happened. The hurts carved in my heart are painful, up till now it still hurts badly. I know it will be there forever.....The hurts had changed me, though it's through the hurts that I see your credits.I had lost the courage, patience and determination that I once had. I do not know how long I can hold on, for 1 year could have so many changes. I was absent from your life when you were in your JC, and I wasn't aware of your happenings. The absence sometimes worried me; what actually had happened to you in that 2 years. I kn0w that through so many years, you've changed too. You were no longer the little boy who I can talk everything to, who I can see through easily just by your actions. But do you know that I very much prefer the old you? At least back then, I know and believe strongly that you will always be with me. I'm sorry for the hurts that I've brought you few years back. I know it had somehow changed you, but do you know that when I did that, I actually do like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't consider what you said. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't reject you just to be fair to you. At that point, I hope that when I accept you, is when I truly like you. But it's all too late now...although you still cares now, but you are no longer you.Can you tell me, does future and hope still lies for you and me now?
I confessed my love for BABY at
12:52 AM
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