Hi pple! Hmms...i can forsee that this will be quite an emo post, which i think it's just a channel for me to vent out my feelings. Okays....Just finished helping and attending my cousin's wedding last sat. It's a beautiful night full of love, and this night I thought through alot and alot. Alot of past memories flashed by me, and this includes you. Between you and me, we walked through the happiness and sadness, I know that I wouldn't forget you.But the fact is when I realised your love, you were already not by my side. You are walking on to another path of your life, walking so fast and leaving me behind. From the beginning, I'm always the one who's waiting, even so it was for the another him. I am already so much used to the feeling of waiting, that waiting for you is not an issue. 1 year is not an issue to me, but you do not know what I had went through. I had never told you, but that does not mean it had never happened. The hurts carved in my heart are painful, up till now it still hurts badly. I know it will be there forever.....The hurts had changed me, though it's through the hurts that I see your credits.I had lost the courage, patience and determination that I once had. I do not know how long I can hold on, for 1 year could have so many changes. I was absent from your life when you were in your JC, and I wasn't aware of your happenings. The absence sometimes worried me; what actually had happened to you in that 2 years. I kn0w that through so many years, you've changed too. You were no longer the little boy who I can talk everything to, who I can see through easily just by your actions. But do you know that I very much prefer the old you? At least back then, I know and believe strongly that you will always be with me. I'm sorry for the hurts that I've brought you few years back. I know it had somehow changed you, but do you know that when I did that, I actually do like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't consider what you said. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't reject you just to be fair to you. At that point, I hope that when I accept you, is when I truly like you. But it's all too late now...although you still cares now, but you are no longer you.Can you tell me, does future and hope still lies for you and me now?
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Monday, September 08, 2008
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Hello! It seems like I hadn't been updating for quite a long time. Yeah, plain lazy lahhs =XHahas, what should I update on? Hmms....holidays have been fine so far. Going out with friends or cousins, driving and helping out with childcare centre at some days. So far so good, yea?Received my official driving licence last tuesday! I really couldn't believe this card is my licence, keep asking my dad "this is really my licence ma??". My dad still laughed and said, "How could someone so small like you can drive a car? You must have bought the licence". Hello! It's my hardwork ehhs. Tried driving on highways at a speed of 90km/h.....it's very very cool and I like driving on highways because it's all straight road and there's no traffic light!! Haha, driving experience is not bad =)Helping out with the childcare centre made me realise that the passion of being a teacher lies in the management and people of the centre. During the attachment, I attempted the thought of being a teacher because my children were really sweet, and I felt the greatness of being a teacher. But working in this other centre, I felt like "oh no". Hahas, but at least i'll get paid =P Been thinking of my future path these few days, big headache and big sian-ness!! Haiis, shall sit down and do a thorough research on the career paths that I have thought on. The fact that I am graduating in a few more months is a big sian-ness too. argh!what else?? Hmms, oh ya, I went out with Yeelin and Alicia yesterday. Our first stop was Queenstown Shopping Centre. We went there to make a shirt of our very own - Y3 ( Y cube). It's a bit ex, but I still love it!! Met Sabrina on the bus when Alicia and me were heading to Queensway too, haha. After that, we went to Cineleisure to watch the Jap Movie, Boys Over Flowers. A very sweet movie, yeah, the true meaning behind true love is just a word - trust. After the movie, Alicia and me went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to have dinner at Mos Burger. We talked a lot about our change these few years, and I felt so touched when I heard that she's really moving on forward. I'm proud of you, Alicia!!Hahas, okay, I shall end this long post here. Bye.
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