Monday, June 09, 2008
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Hi....breathless and helpless is all i am feeling now. I know i shouldn't complain, because this is my choice. But but....i didn't know this choice is going to take me so much. I started with this course, thinking that all i am going to face are innocent and cute faces and I felt confident that even if I faced problems, all these faces will help me to overcome. Now, I am proven so very wrong! My passion and love had been totally killed. It has been 4 days! and i still feel so worried and stressed. I bet all of the year 3 are feeling the same way now. We are just being left so helpless. It's the 2 weeks holidays now, and all of the people after surviving the common tests, are rejoicing and enjoying now. How i hope i have common tests than attachment, at least the pain only last for a few days. But no, holidays....we are left sitting in front of the laptop, worrying about our Field Practicum assignments (6 sequential lesson plans, brainstorm web, subject web, 4pages newsletter, 5 activities each for 2 learning corners, assessments by mentor and field supervisor). Other than that, there's still CIRPE assignment which I am totally at loss of what to do but need to present on 7 July, and and, what else? DAC reflection. None of them had been completed till date.For the very first time, I really got the feeling that I won't make it. Though how much I know i couldn't give up, the feeling is just too strong. 245hours mingling with children is already very tiring. Many people have been telling me "Spending time with children only, can be very fun de, be positive!" Yah, why not you come and try? Np explained to us why we are not paid. Reason being, education is not industrial area, therefore there's no payment. I don't mind not being paid, but since we are not paid, why are we being pushed to do so much??A good question posted by my friend in her blog " Does the reason, i like children, suffice enough to be in this course?" I don't know. It used to be enough, but now....nobody knows. I guess, for the first time, my jie told me she wants to give up. Upon hearing this, I feel perhaps now is the extreme period. I just feel so much like crying now. If crying can help to reduce stress, I will certainly cry a bucket now.All i can do now is only try hard and JIA YOU!! friends, jia you bahs!Countdown: 27 days.
I confessed my love for BABY at
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