Saturday, October 27, 2007
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Hey! I've got a lot to say today. really a lot...but the feelings can't really be expressed in words. I happened to browse through the message history in MSN that I had with my friends last year. I was reading through all the conversations, and I realised how much I miss my friends and the happiness with them! So yea, I am really a happy girl back then hahaha.
I felt the most when I was reading April and May 2006 conversations. That was before poly starts, before everything start. Haha. Didn't know I could change so much in just 1 and plus year. Reading through conversations with Kaiqiu, Yeeling, Qin feng, Jeremy, Jia hao and my cousin...really brought back a lot of memories. We were so happy then. My course is really a big challenge to me, and I didn't know beforehand that there were so much things i have to do, didn't know there were so much stress i have to cope with. Well, I have to admit that this course sort of change my character. From a happy person to a unhappy one. hahas BUT now, i'm not going to look at it as STRESS, instead i shall look at it as a CHALLENGE. Take one day by one day!
One of the conversations, I told kaiqiu " sing, write and laugh is my life. If i lose either of them, my life is gone!". To think, I had forgotten that I had said this before. SO sad. I felt the urge to cry when i read this, cuz I forgotten this understanding and best description of myself! I said that I cannot lose either of them, yet I'm losing the most important component - LAUGHTER!
I shall not carry on like this! I would contact all my beloved friends, and my cousin. Talk to them about anything under the sun, date them and have fun!! I would change back to the happy person. Sing. write. laugh make up xinyi!! Jia you Jia you! Happy is the word!!
My cousin said before, stress and problems is only a bus-stop in your life. All you have to do is to alight the bus ,get on to another bus and move on to another bus-stop in your life. Never dwell on it cuz it would be the past! Yes! I remember that now! I would take my course as challenge and move on to my life. Not worth losing myself to stress! Xinyi, remember remember!! You are a HAPPY person back, now and then~~
I confessed my love for BABY at
2:12 PM
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