Thursday, September 13, 2007
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Hi...this hols really pass very fast. at least it's faster than the previous 2 hols....is it that time is running ahead of me? I have spent some precious and nice time with my good friends, and i felt really contented. that's enough, seriously. If what I hope for never come true, then it's already a great contentment to have things this way, at least nothing changed. I don't want anything to change anymore, i can't deal with it. i can't. I'm tired of my life...I'm always optimistic but when i said tired so many times, it means that i'm really tired. Alot of problems are rising around me, and please, let it end. I hope to have some nice time with my family this hols, becuz i know that when sch reopen or when my life continues to walk on, i will have lesser time for them. But, i keep seeing my dad worrying abt this and that, and my mum quarrelling with him, and even told me that maybe one day, she will need a divorce. I know her words are just a spur of moment, but I don't want to hear that. I love them, and their health has been my greatest concern. I just want some happy and nice time with them, I don't care what problems are arising, I only know that as long as a family is united and happy, all problems can be overcomed. My life hasn't been going smoothly, but I always told myself to stand up and i always did after cry. I told myself that there are still many beautiful pple ard me who I love, therefore I must stand up. But why even my closed ones are making me feel worthless....走在马路上，眼前闪着的是青灯，
看似安全的马路却突然有辆车
冲了过来。
我没反应的站在原地，没反应。
司机及时煞车，然后向我道歉。
可是过了马路的我却发现，
在看见车子冲过来的我，
没觉得害怕，没觉得紧张。
就只是很漠然的平静和呆滞。
或许潜意识里的我，
是已经麻木了。
I confessed my love for BABY at
7:25 PM
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