Human relationship between one another require such skill and patience. Well, I think i'm just tired. Been using this word "tired" a lot a lot of times.hahas.Growing up just make you feel tired of a lot of things, yeah, part and parcel of life. 我不想我不想，不想长大，长大后世界就没童话
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
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会不会有那么一天，我会失去我情绪上的控制，我会放弃所有的一切? 我比谁都知道 不值得， 我比谁都知道不可以。。。但是我真的累了。我时常都在想，为什么现在要快乐那么难，为什么我就是不能做我自己? 我很爱我的家人朋友，我也很珍惜我身边的一切， 可是很多时候，我都发现我自己不是快乐的，有的应该就只是累和无助吧。从小，我就不是一个喜欢发脾气的人，不管是什么事，我从来也不会情绪爆发。
可是现在也不知道是不是因为太压力，还是心中有太多说不出的事，我常常在家里就很容易失去控制，即使我多么不想对我妈妈发脾气，我还是发了! 妈，对不起，我真的不是故意的。不知道怎么跟你说对不起，但是我还是最爱你! 在学校里，我也真的很尽量不要让我心里的压力影响我。不知有多少次，在我情绪快要失控时，我硬是忍了下来。
很怀念中学时候，有个最好的朋友，Yeeling 在我身边。不管是我快乐还是难过，都可以第一时间对她说。她也是最了解我的人吧，因为她，以前的我什么都可以面对，永远都是那么的开心。Yeeling,我很想念你，也很想念以前的我们。希望不管时间过了多久，我们的友情永远都不变。我多么希望现在能有这样的一个人让我相信， 让我依靠。。。我真的很累，很累。。。走了那么久到底是为了什么? 开心真的有那么难吗?
我曾经告诉过Yee Lin ，我要做回以前的我。以前的我，我想是再也回不去了，毕竟身边的人和世界都不一样了。 但是 “只要笑一笑，没什么事情过不了”，这句话我还是很相信。即使回不去以前的我，我也不能放弃让自己快乐。加油吧，快不快乐是自己决定的。ECH， 你是我选择的，就算你要把逼得快疯了，我告诉你，我绝对不会输给我自己!!! 如果有一天我放弃了，那就是说我放弃的不只是ECH，也是我自己。希望不会有那么一天。
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Hey! Been a long time since I blogged. Alicia and Joyce had been nagging me to update and that's when I realised it's almost one month le hahas! I can only say these few days, life has been rather hectic and I am buried by all the assignments! Sometimes, I really felt breathless and I really do wonder is this all what i want to do. Slowly, i am losing my passion and strength. I am always fearing that there might be one day I will give up on all. Xin Yi, Jia you!! It's only a few steps more. You MUST overcome all the challenges! You CAN do it, cuz that's you!!Okays, shall talk about the happenings. Last wed, we went to have Japanese buffet to celebrate Joyce's birthday. Lots of photos were taken, and after that we went to Bugis to shop. Yeelin and me bought a similiar shirt and the birthday girl bought nothing. LOL. Was under so many temptations! I wanted to buy this this and this, but need to control myself!! money constrain LOL. And on thurdays, we organised a small celebration for Joyce. Cake and presents of course would not be less! hahas, and I called someone to wish her happy birthday. yep, hope she enjoyed her birthday!Tomorrow will be my last music assessment, and i will be over with FP! Wish me GOOD LUCK!! SO nervous.... eh, might be watching HARRY POTTER with alicia next week! Can't wait, I'm coming!!
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