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*MY DEAR BABY
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Saturday, June 23, 2007
Y *099* Y


Hey! Here's a video I would like to share. It's the ending song for a Taiwan drama '18禁不禁'. It's a school comedy. I love this song. It's very very sweet, sang by 棒棒堂阿本 & 黑涩会美眉小薰! I like 阿本, he's quite cute and shuai! 小薰 is very pretty too! I think they really make a great pair in this show and perhaps reality too! Guranteed Nice and Sweet! Please watch if interested. Enjoy! =)



I confessed my love for BABY at 3:38 AM

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Thursday, June 21, 2007
Y *098* Y


Hi! I pre-ordered Fahrenheit first photo album and had just collected it today!! SOSOSOSO happy! It cost me $24.90 worh, but it comes with an hour behind-the-scene dvd, one really huge poster and a file folder. So....quite worth it lah! anything abt Fahrenheit is worth it anyway. Hmm...all the 4 of them are shuai in the photo album, of cuz my da dong the shuai-est! Hmm...Ya Lun is really pretty-looking in this book! Just let me show you some photos bahs...no photo of the huge poster taken. Will take it some day! the photos not that clear sorry!

The file folder!!
The whole set!!
The DVD!!
The photo album!!


I confessed my love for BABY at 10:39 PM

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Y *097* Y


原来我没有想像中的难过和放不下。说了那么多次要放弃,也试了那么多次,其实早已不觉得难过。这次,我完完全全的感觉对他没有了眷恋,也没有了思念。在我的生命中,可以没有他了。某个程度方面的我,在感情方面,是真的很坚强。哈哈,也许吧,也许经历了那么多,原先在感情方面很脆弱的我,已经慢慢转变成现在可以承担,可以很坚强的我。这应该是好事吧,或许还真的应该谢谢他。
现在的感觉确实比较踏实,比较轻松了。以前,我觉得我根本无法控制我自己,
只能一直固执的选择不放弃。但是,有时侯,就是因为太固执,太坚持,所以让自己看不见到底什么才是对自己最好的。何必那么辛苦自己呢。。。其实,一直到在,
我没怪过他。因为喜欢他是我自己的选择,而且我真心喜欢过,至少没对不起自己。
现在,我可以告诉我自己,“我真的已经不爱他了。”
我相信。


Oh ya, the font had become bigger. Big thanks to l3montea, the designer of this blogskin! hahas. hmms, as for the photos at the chalet, I'm sorry that I can't upload yet. Been too busy with my heavy pile of assignments, but I promised they will be upload real soon okays....hahas


I confessed my love for BABY at 2:35 AM

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Monday, June 18, 2007
Y *096* Y


Hey~ Back from chalet! hmms, chalet was ok lahs....though didn't really had much fun, but afterall it's still pretty relaxing! threw all the workload behind lols, so now have to start chiong-ing for my assignments which is a real SIAN thing! Hmms...changed my blogskin to my dearest Jiro~~i'm sorry about the font size! i know it's a bit too small, tried to change it but apparently seem like nothing can be done =P. So Sorry about it!! but anyway...this blogskin is just SHUAI!~
Will upload the pics at chalet on my next entry! Tried uploading but failed due to internet connection, but promise to upload them on my next entry! :P


I confessed my love for BABY at 3:37 PM

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Saturday, June 16, 2007
Y *095* Y


Going chalet tmr~~~hahas! but so sian lah, so much assignments to complete, and so little time!! Feeling so sian and not motivated at all~ why is ECH just so full of assignments, and so stressed lah! Field Practicum assessment just on the first day of sch reopen! woohoo~~ so great right! haha....brave it! brave it! hopefully, i can complete all my assignments in time and pass my assessment!! Jia You~ Jia You~~I can do it! It's very very tough but again, I can't disappoint my parents and i had walked so far and so tough! so JIA YOU LA~~ =p


I confessed my love for BABY at 2:10 AM

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"这不是恋爱的心情,这不过是我自己在一相情愿,所以,我不能用爱来形容对你的感觉,虽然那份心痛远远大于被喜欢的人拒绝..."

无意间在网上看到这句话,心里不禁感同身受。。。
真的是这样吗? 我想是吧!
这么多年来,我对他的心情充其量也只能算是“暗恋”
从来也不算是“爱”, 因为他始终没认真回应

那一天确实是很幸福,很快乐,很感动,
很开心我能在那天更了解他一些,
也总算是,实现了我6年来的一个小小梦想!
只是,这一切就像是一场梦
一场梦醒来,什么都没有~
因为我们还是回到了原点,
他还是跟以前一样,
不会主动找我。。。
我的心里其实承受着,
更大的失落和难过!

我不会再这么傻了,不会再等着无法回应我的人。
6年的单恋真的真的太辛苦了。
现在的我只想做最自然,最快乐的自己,
从今以后,不再为了他~
我一定会找到比他更值得的幸福
一定会
一定会
一定。

“ 你”, 我知道你是不会看到的,但我还是要说。。。其实一直到和你相处的那天,我还是抱持这一丝希望,以为我们会有可能。谢谢你那天对我的温柔,我很珍惜! 只是,那天过后,你还是没变。。。我真的感受到了前所未有的失望和难过~~你知道吗? 一直以来,我都不介意你对我坦白,甚至你拒绝,我也可以承受. 我觉得我是有勇气可以面对的。我不怕你拒绝,毕竟喜欢你也曾经带给我快乐。可是,你好残忍! 你选择沉默,连拒绝都不肯,连让我放弃最起码的原因都不给我! 我实在没办法了,不管我怎么做,不擅于表达心情的你始终不会表达。。。我不会再等了,现在对你的失望真的太大了。其实我是知道你的心情,感受到了,只是我不想再那么不确定,只能一直用猜的去了解你的想法。我一直用自己的方式喜欢你,很抱歉,也许对你也造成了困扰。我决定结束这6年的单恋,不再这么傻! 我是用了绝大的决心决定的,你要知道放弃也是需要勇气去做的事。最后,还是要谢谢你啦~谢谢你让我在放弃前,有过这么美好的回忆,至少我没遗憾。



I confessed my love for BABY at 12:49 AM

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Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Y *093* Y


突然觉得很无助。。。不明白自己为什么要去做根本不喜欢做的事!?!是因为不能辜
负家人,还是因为走到现在。。。放弃根本就是一件笑死人的事? 说实话,我真的
很不喜欢现在。。难道,想快快乐乐去做我喜欢做的事已经越来越不可能了吗?
我对未来的未知数更是觉得害怕。。。我真的无法想像我以后还要这样继续做我没
兴趣的事! 我真的不想! 原来做错一个决定真的很难再回头。。。因为放弃,真的
会牵扯到太多的人,尤其是把很高的期望放在我身上的父母,我真的不能让他们失
望!但是我会快乐吗? 还有在我身边的朋友,我实在舍不得!

我并不是说现在所做的事不好,相反的。。我觉得会很有意义,我觉得那份感动和
开心更是无价! 可惜不适合我吧。。。明白了这句话,“放弃也是需要勇气去做的
事”。真的不容易。。。做着自己没报握,没兴趣的事真的让我连活下去都不知道
是为了什么。痛苦的事,我不能对别人说,因为没有人会明白,甚至原谅我的想法。

怎么办。。。就这么说服自己走下去吗?? 我的未来是否真的不能有选择了?

我觉得我应该也不会再有一个非常懂我的朋友,一个能让我毫无顾虑的依赖她的朋
友吧。。。我知道我身边其实有很多关心我,爱我的朋友和家人,在我的心里,也
是真的真的非常的珍惜,非常的爱他们! 他们的确很重要,但谁也无法解释我的空
虚吧。或许是我失去了相信人,放心的依赖人的能力了吧。只因为,受过的伤害太
重。哈哈,说起来都觉得可笑,可是却是那么明确的感受。。。


I confessed my love for BABY at 3:09 AM

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Y *092* Y


Hey! Guys... This website,www.trends4you.blogspot.com is owned by Joyce. She is selling clothes for a shop from Bugis. It's pretty cool and nice!! People interested in buying nice clothes, can go visit it! Another website, http://beadsandends.livejournal.com, is owned by Yanyan. She is selling handmade accessories with her friends and, so all the products are very unique and limited! Those designs are really cool! These websites belong to my friends, please help to promote it too!People interested, please give it a support! Thanks! I have the links in my blog, so just simply click it!


I confessed my love for BABY at 10:10 PM

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Sunday, June 03, 2007
Y *091* Y


谢谢你的温柔 MV - S.H.E and Fahrenheit



This song is from S.H.E's new album,PLAY. It's sang by these 2 groups, S.H.E and Fahrenheit. Fahrenheit's part is adapted from Mayday's song called wen rou. This MV is about Hebe, Jiro and Calvin being involved in a triangle relationship.Jiro was Hebe's ex-boyfriend and Calvin likes Hebe a lot. Hebe couldn't forget Jiro and all the while, still loves him a lot, whereas Calvin is always there waiting for her. Hebe know Calvin's love for her but couldn't accept this new relationship because in her heart, there's only Jiro. Nice MV!! Quite a sad and touching song~~Enjoy the MV! =)


I confessed my love for BABY at 12:36 PM

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It's a dream came true today! i went out with *him* for the first time in these 6 years today, with my best sister in sec sch and her boyfriend. We were all from the same sec sch, so yea :p. ok, this date is actually started from a bet. He lost the bet, so he owe me one treat haha

I met him 1pm at Jurong East mrt station, with my friends. When he's nearing me, i'm so nervous that I want to escape. Yeeling pulled me back and said "please la, it's for ur happiness, grab it!" So nervous till when i finally met up with him....we didn't talk for 20 mins. It was until on the train, our communication became much better. At least it's quite natural......He is really far from my expectations, and he has the making of a good boyfriend. We went to seoul garden for meal...and he really touches me. He cooked the meat and even peeled the prawn for me! No one had peeled prawn for me, except my mum! Though he kept telling me if he didn't cooked well or burnt, i can don't eat but as long as he's the one who cooked, no matter how bad is the food, i will eat up everything and of cuz i did! and we shared one plate of ice-cream. chao xing fu....i really didn't expect this day will come! seriously not~

After that, we went for xbox. Halfway through, i gave up le cuz i don't know how to play! hahas...i'm lousy at games, especially xbox! playstation is better ba, so i just watched him play. But just watching him play is a bigbig xing fu to me too! During this whole thing, I kept having the urge to cry because it's just too unbelievable. After that, we just walked around orchard area and chatted. For the first time, i chatted so much with him....after which, we went home le. Though it's quite tiring, but this time is really enough le. zhen de!

I think i had gotten the ans i want, whether ask or not is no longer impt. seriously, there might not be a next time, but just this once is enough for me. hao xing fu le! even if i have to give up in future, at least this is one try i gave, and one great memory....i will do my best for more tries but i won't force. I had finally fulfied my dream these 6 years!


I confessed my love for BABY at 1:23 AM

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