Monday, April 16, 2007
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These few days, I have been feeling depressed, real depressed over the reopening of school. thought of giving up........wondered whether I have the strength to continue this path. Actually, that incident, that experience affected me a lot. I told myself to let the past to be the past, don't think about it.....but i had not been able to do so. Whenever i thought of that, it seem to me that i am a failure. I'm feeling this bad becuz i'm scared that the same thing will occur, if it did, I really don't think I will have the strength to make it through a second time, i'm scared of this word " teaching" too.....teach, can i make it? BUT...after talking to yeelin on msn, and thinking of how happy i used to be in sec sch days, thinking that happy me, though had my downs, I'm still always laughing happily every single day......我感觉我好有力量去面对了! 不能再活在过去的不快乐，一定要有勇气去面对自己的伤口，去面对未来! 我想念以前的我，永远都快乐的笑着，好像再发生什么，我都一定可以克服!
我想做这样的我，我想回到这样的我，虽然不容易，但是...明天开始，我一定要让我自己努力去快乐的过每一天，每天都哈哈大笑! 就算在别人的眼中，这样的举动是很疯的，但是那又怎么样,
只要快乐就好啦! 因为快乐虽然可以很简单，但也可以很难... 如果我不是以前那样的我，那就等于说我不是真正的我, 所以我绝对不能让那样快乐的我消失! 不只要让自己每天开心，也要让我身边的朋友也是开心的~~
过去一年的poly生活，我没真正开心过，但是我不会这样继续，也不能! 我会让自己真正开心， 希望未来的我每一天都是充满信心，充满我应该拥有的欢笑~Lin, 谢谢你! 因为你的鼓励，我觉得好有力量，我觉得我一定可以有勇气去面对所有在我面前会出现的挑战! 未来的困难不可怕 !我们的约定，我不会忘! 要你们每天开心，也是我所希望做到的... 别忘了 `只要笑一笑，没什么事情过不了!` this is a magical phrase worh! !大东说过 ：就算发生什么问题，他还是会做开朗，开心的大东! 因为如果放弃了，他输给的不只是问题，而是输给自己，因为他放弃了让自己勇敢，快乐! 全世界最不能输的，就是输给自己! 我一定要加油，因为不能输给自己!! 明天开学第一天，所有挑战的第一天， 没什么好怕的~ 我要带着 =) 去学校!只要笑一笑，没什么事情过不了! JIA YOU!!
I confessed my love for BABY at
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