Thursday, March 29, 2007
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Hi....I am just here to bid farewell to him. Things are progressing between me and him, but just at this moment, i chose to give up. and I know that for this time, it's for real. cuz I didn't have any struggle and in fact, i felt relaxed when i decided. He initiated to sms me, talk to me, joke with me......all these were just my dream in the past. I am really glad when he is able to treat me this way...as i said, i used to only be able to see him from a faraway position. But as we chatted on, I began to realise we have too many differences which are not able to be solved. interests, character...all these which are related to personality can't be changed at all. I realised that
我喜欢的是以前我以为的他.... in the past 6 years, I did not understand him enough, I viewed him in my own opinion, perhaps I didn't try to understand him....I thought of him as the way i want him to be. As i began to understand him better, I know that he was not how I thought to be, the "him" i like was no longer here....perhaps all i have for the present him, is just
习惯 ...it suddenly struck on me that, if this was the case, why did i still insist on liking him. I shouldn't force such thing....
Actually, I like the way we are now. I don't wish to change anything......friends, we are friends who can talk and joke now....it's already considered as the closest relationship we have for this past 6 years., and it's the only time he treated me this natural. I really don't wish to change anything. He once told me that our friendship meant a lot to him, since friends is what he only want, is what he doesn't want to change either....那就让我们做永远的朋友吧. friends can be a forever thing.....I hope to be by his side as a friend forever...afterall....我想一直都知道我爱过的人过的好不好....
I believe this is the best choice for the two of us. I kept telling myself not to expect too much from him, treasure the moments we have...but it's really hard ba? only if we just stay as friends and give up, i will only then be able to not expect anything from him. with lower expectations, we will be happier bahs...it took me so long to see the reason to give up. I always thought if we have mutual feelings for each other, i shouldn't give up but i missed out the point that, we are not suitable in many aspects.....不适合的人在一起怎么会快乐.... i meant it when i said i'm happy even if the happiness between us is only for once. that 6 days when he chatted with me happily everyday....fufilled my dream. i'm really happy and really, it's enough le. I will always remember it.....
"唯一的一次，我没为了这个决定而哭泣，所以这次是真的...我希望在以后的日子里， 你会过得快乐，过得幸福，你一定要做到! 当然，我也会找到属于我的幸福..."
I confessed my love for BABY at
10:56 PM
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