Jiro Wang!

Thursday, March 29, 2007
Y *080* Y

Hi....I am just here to bid farewell to him. Things are progressing between me and him, but just at this moment, i chose to give up. and I know that for this time, it's for real. cuz I didn't have any struggle and in fact, i felt relaxed when i decided. He initiated to sms me, talk to me, joke with me......all these were just my dream in the past. I am really glad when he is able to treat me this way...as i said, i used to only be able to see him from a faraway position. But as we chatted on, I began to realise we have too many differences which are not able to be solved. interests, character...all these which are related to personality can't be changed at all. I realised that
我喜欢的是以前我以为的他.... in the past 6 years, I did not understand him enough, I viewed him in my own opinion, perhaps I didn't try to understand him....I thought of him as the way i want him to be. As i began to understand him better, I know that he was not how I thought to be, the "him" i like was no longer here....perhaps all i have for the present him, is just
习惯 ...it suddenly struck on me that, if this was the case, why did i still insist on liking him. I shouldn't force such thing....

Actually, I like the way we are now. I don't wish to change anything......friends, we are friends who can talk and joke now....it's already considered as the closest relationship we have for this past 6 years., and it's the only time he treated me this natural. I really don't wish to change anything. He once told me that our friendship meant a lot to him, since friends is what he only want, is what he doesn't want to change either....那就让我们做永远的朋友吧. friends can be a forever thing.....I hope to be by his side as a friend forever...afterall....我想一直都知道我爱过的人过的好不好....

I believe this is the best choice for the two of us. I kept telling myself not to expect too much from him, treasure the moments we have...but it's really hard ba? only if we just stay as friends and give up, i will only then be able to not expect anything from him. with lower expectations, we will be happier bahs...it took me so long to see the reason to give up. I always thought if we have mutual feelings for each other, i shouldn't give up but i missed out the point that, we are not suitable in many aspects.....不适合的人在一起怎么会快乐.... i meant it when i said i'm happy even if the happiness between us is only for once. that 6 days when he chatted with me happily everyday....fufilled my dream. i'm really happy and really, it's enough le. I will always remember it.....

"唯一的一次，我没为了这个决定而哭泣，所以这次是真的...我希望在以后的日子里，你会过得快乐，过得幸福，你一定要做到! 当然，我也会找到属于我的幸福..."

I confessed my love for BABY at 10:56 PM

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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Y *079* Y

Hey! I took this from jiro's forum. A fan wrote it...I really think that this person has writing talent. She had completely and clearly voiced out Jin Xiu Yi from Hana Kimi's feeling for Rui Xi! Whenever I saw Xiu Yi being so tong ku about liking Rui Xi, I will feel so sad for him,
心疼他对感情的认真和专一 , 心疼秀伊，也心疼大东....Da dong is also this devoted and serious to love in reality...After I read this, I felt even more 心疼 for him. 金秀伊，你好傻! 不过却傻得认真，傻得可爱... Hana Kimi is just a fanatastic show!!! I love Hana Kimi! I guess all Hana Kimi fans will agree with the following hahas

" 那一年，我17岁，喜欢食物和足球，更喜欢大声的吼叫与狂笑。把头发染成金色，是希望在进球的瞬间，让每个人都看到樱开的黄金右脚，看到金秀伊意气风发的模样。

那一年，我的世界里只有关于足球的理想，相信着通过自己的努力到达完美的梦想彼岸，没有想到，爱情的玫瑰会在意料之外的地方瞬间开花。我是为运动而生的男人，喜欢辣妹是正常的吧。我也一直以为自己是正常的，直到你出现的时候，我一贯的认知被彻底颠覆。金秀伊爱上了一个男人？？同性恋？？my god！

关于那些小小的细节，我都牢牢的记得。我第一次搂你的肩膀，是你刚来樱开，那么娇小的身体，实在不像一个男子汉所会有的吧。我还想说我们一起健身，一起变成黄金倒三角二人组会多风光。第一次想吻你，酒醉的时候的你实在太可爱，倒在我的肩膀，人家说爱情有触电的感觉，那一次，从你身上流出的电流对我而言真是太强。我想说，虽然我不那么正常，虽然可能你跟泉更要好一点，但是，瑞希，你每一次哭每一次笑我都是那么的关注，甚至比泉更关注。我想我是真的真的非常喜欢你，不仅仅是好兄弟、好朋友那种喜欢喔。可是，想拥抱自己的兄弟，想亲吻自己的朋友，这样不是很奇怪吗？

所以，瑞希，我可不可以拜托你？不要这么可爱的对我微笑，不要那么体贴的对我好？不要让我常想以秒杀的速度冲到你面前，拉你的手跑到天涯海角，在没有泉、没有任何阻挡的地方狠狠的拥抱你，永远不放。　　

所以，瑞希，可不可以拜托你？考虑看看，抛开一切，来我的怀抱"

I confessed my love for BABY at 1:12 AM

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Y *078* Y

Hey! let me start with a few days ago? I went to Kbox with Joyce and Jeremy last sunday. It was fun! I just love singing! lalala~~ it's been rather long since I last visited Kbox. A month? not that long...but to me, it is!! Singing is my long time career hahas...only when singing, I felt like i'm really me..this is the thing I will never give up! hahaaa...going to kbox again next week!

I went for a movie "The Messenger" with Alicia today. The movie is nice!! quite worth watching. You people will like it, if you prefer thriller movies! hahas. I wanted to buy the " Play" magazine for March today, but who knows, Kinokuniya at Bugis and Takashimaya had it sold out!! OMG!! i should had bought it that time! but that time got so many magazines on sale about fahrenheit, hard to choose!!! and it's very very ex!! $8plus for one magazine eh! But nevertheless, i still managed to get one magazine on wu chun and da dong! hao guo mei you bahs...

Hmm, the timetable for year 2 is out!! I can't believe! i'm actually a year 2 now! time just pass too fast le ba? omg!! I hope next year will be better than this year! I truly hope for it!!!

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:05 PM

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Thursday, March 15, 2007
Y *077* Y

我曾经也只能远远的看着你

好像看你一眼，就会让一整天都是快乐的

所以，我根本不敢想过我们会有今天~

这次的回头是值得的吧，

因为带给了我不一样的你...

这6天也许是我这一生最幸福的日子，

虽然很短暂，但真的很快乐...

我不知道怎么用字来准确说明我的感受，

但在这6天理，你终于能够自然的面对我，

是以前的我想都没想过的...

我虽然比谁都清楚，我和你走到最远也只是友情

我们永远也不会有什么结果...

但是，我这次真的感觉到你的在乎了,

虽然你并没有说什么...

我知道这是你专属，默默在我身边的方式

相信我，我知道的...

我说过，就算这6天的幸福只有一次，我也真的觉得足够了

所以我不后悔选择放弃我所有的努力，再次回头

很谢谢你...真的

但，这样的付出让我觉得很失望

因为我永远都猜不透你心里的想法

好累，好失望...

不会有结果的我们到底能够快乐多久?

相对的快乐总是会换来相对的痛苦和失望吧

但，这次的决定，我真的没后悔过...

幸福曾经来过，就在我感受到你心里的在乎的时候...

Hmm...got my result yesterday...gpa is 2.9. though it's slightly lower than first sem by 0.17, but i'm ok with it. At least i didn't drop a lot and I cleared ALL my modules! that's worth something to be happy yea? Actually, i did expected a drop in my grade cuz the projects last sem were really too much and I had a hard time handling all, I really did my very best, so I told myself whatever grade it will be, as long as I passed, I will accept it =)

Tmr is my last day of work!! yeah!!

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:57 PM

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Sunday, March 11, 2007
Y *076* Y

This aunty at my work is really stupid, really nasty and really really irritating lahs!!! SO WHAT if you had worked very long at this shop, still, you have no right to show me any of this attitude!! you have NO right, you are NOT the boss! I don't mind if u tell me what you expected from me, but please, not this attitude please!! Even the boss is unpleased with you, mind your job!! I bear with you, it's because, it's work!! but I really really dislike your attitude! I worked with you thrice, and three times, you spoiled my mood totally for the whole day!! do u actually know how irritating you are?? I hate that black face of yours!! You are this nasty till some staff complaint about you, do u noe, what a failure u have been as a human being? argh!! really pissed off!! I seldom got this angry, and u had successfully got me pissed off! I really don't want to see you lahs!! I really hope i can quit immediately, but argh! i still got 3 days with her, wherease one day is with her alone!!!!! What a luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:05 PM

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Thursday, March 08, 2007
Y *075* Y

Hey! hmms, i went out with alicia today! she accompanied to have a hair cut, and i cut it till my shoulder length. It's about 5 years since I had such a short hair length...but i think it was nice! a new change...when i asked to cut it even shorter, the hairdresser even asked me " why you want to cut till so short?" hahas. then after that, we went to kinokuniya to check out Fahrenheit's magazines. u noe what? there are 4 magazines with Fahrenheit on the cover page! i was struggling between 2 of my favourite magazines...it was such a toture!! in the end, i only buy one...cuz it was expensive! So irritating, it's either there's no magazine with them or with SO MANY magazines with them!! qi si ren le!!

After that, we went to the library there, and i borrowed 2 novels! i used to have the habit of reading novels when i was in sec 3...but as i merged into poly, i stopped this habit. hahas...then, we had lunch at the cafe in the library. The cafe is so stylish...a nice environment, i would say the food, is considered not bad too! We chatted a lot, hahas, I had an enjoyable day today! =)

I fell in love with this song yesterday!! it's " 我一直都在" from hana kimi OST. It's so nice!! I like the lyrics as well!

我一直都在你身后等待

等你有一天能感觉到我

就算我在你世界

渺小像一颗尘埃

我也会给你我所有的光和热

I like the way i'm beside you...even if i'm only xing fu for this once, it's enough...

I confessed my love for BABY at 10:07 PM

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Y *074* Y

在和你聊天的时候...

我竟然还感觉到紧张，不知所措

更没想到...在你说出再见时，我竟然真的感觉到心痛

甚至痛得眼泪都不听话了

这些都是我以为...不可能会再有的情绪

我想问你，我曾经努力想证明的爱情，有存在过吗?

你从来都没有告诉过我任何你心里的感受

我以为我是知道的，但是我怕听错...

很多次，我都认为我已经不能再回头，所以一定要放弃

但是现在，我终于明白了...

不管是试着喜欢上别人，还是忘记你

都是我做不到的...

与其勉强，倒不如接受...

有没有结果，我都不在乎了

我愿意维持我们现在的朋友关系

我愿意一直这样在你身边，让你知道

我一直都在，一直喜欢着你...

直到那一天你不再需要我，

直到那一天我也真的找到另外的幸福

我就会离开你的世界...

好吗?

我要继续偷偷爱着你，因为我觉得这是属于我们的感觉

这样的感觉也可以很幸福!真的!

让我再证明一次爱情的存在

只是这一次有没有结果都不是重点了

重点是...我依然在你身边~

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:12 PM

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