Monday, October 09, 2006
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Okays...this entry, i didn't intend to write it initially. but i felt this this might be one of the good ways to let me fa xie qing xu. I felt this great lost and sadness in me....wad happened?? i dunnoe~~growing up turn me into a different person. I still remembered 6 years ago, I was an innocent child who seem to lead everyday happily....no worries. no sadness. But it wasn't really a bad thing too, at least...i was more mature to handle things now? lolIn the process of growing up, there seems to be alot of things we have to face nevertheless whether we are willing a not. If it was something we couldn't face, at the very least wad we can do is to pretend nothing had happened, continue to live life until the day we can accept? It's true...i guess.*you*, out of the blue moon told me something which i couldn't accept. you really think i don't know ma? i know but i thought that i must have think too much. But you confirmed my thinking. you don't have to tell me, u understand?? i wished i had never heard that, i wished i never knew. why must u tell me?? even if it's an act of honesty, i will rather not know. For that period of time, i couldn't face you or....but perhaps, i was one person who noe how to console myself. everything is fine to me now le. I had accept but it was something i couldn't forget. with that thinking...i felt alot better. i dun care anything now~Come to another part.....i guess i was really a failure in the affairs of hearts. It's alot of efforts for us to be friends, but it was also our limit. friends....we couldn't exceed that. Going into the 6th year, i don't know what more can i do. tired is the only word for me now. how i wish you will understand tt the least you can do is to answer me, even if it was " wo bu xi huan ni". I was begining to think that perhaps i don't like you now, i was only relying too much on the memories. Perhaps the biggest fault i had made was......cen jing tai ai ni. hAhas...it was such a long entry. Paiseh ahs~~~ but it feels great to voice out. =p
I confessed my love for BABY at
8:57 PM
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