Hi! yesterday was JVS musical night. hmm...shan't comment too much on their performance. hahax. hmm....it's NICE to see all my friends, really nice =). i miss JVS seriously. but still, me and kaiqiu didn't watch till the end, we left during the interval as she was too tired and hungry. we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to have KFC as our dinner and chatted aLot aLot! i LOVE chatting with her, can just pour my heart out to her. after that, we went home and my DARLING parents came and fetch me home at boon lay mrt station. =)=)=)hmm....i saw him. all i see from his eyes is hesistation, that's not the ans i want.actually yesterday was a night to make my decision. when i saw him at the first sight, i didn't feel anything special. i only feel TIREDNESS. I felt angry with myself . he didn't dare to face me either, at that moment my decision is to give him up...that's probably the moment i felt my heart aching. another reason why i didn't want to stay, wo bu xiang yue kan yue she bu de. when i reached home, i'm so tired mentally that i have a good sleep throughout the night. the morning i woke up, i didn't feel sad. in fact, i feel alot more relaxed and relieved.i guess i had really put down. perhaps someone out there might suit me more? hehe...lol.My mum is GREAT!! she's really a great mum. she's just like a best friend to me and i can talk to her. she knows abt my decision, and seeing me rather moody...she brought me out for dinner at delifrance and spent 40+ on the meal. hehe. she told me that she just want to take me out for a walk...to san xin. hehe...i'm glad i have a mum like her! =)ok...that's about all! friends, take care =)
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Thursday, July 13, 2006
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Hey! long while since i updated! allright...the most tough period, the most upset period, the struggle period is NOW all over. so pple, thanks for your concern. i'm really ok now.From the start, we are just not meant to be. It's me who is holding on stubbornly. you might said that when i think it's over, it's actually not over. BUT i have no energy to think about that. without him, i can still walk on in my life. I have no problems with that. I still have my darling family and friends. JUST let me treat it as it's over...pls, don't let me see him again. Projects and sch are SOOOO stressful and tiring now! i hate! i hate! =(Bye~
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
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Hey! haix...these few days, i'm being too emotional, too agitated, too chong dong and after all those emotions, i felt sooo tired. in a way....i just lost control of myself. I feel that I cannot wait anymore, i dun have the energy anymore....ever since we got back into contact, it seems like i'm always the one talking to him...i had said before i noe i will feel tired......but this tiredness is somehow too hard to bear...I'm so chong dong that i almost decided to tell him cleary on our musical night, and from then on, i will totally si xin....wo shi lei dao le ji xian. but later my frens and my mum said i'm being too rash. after a longLONG talk with my mum....i think that what she said made sense bah. i dun have to be so xing ku...so, i decided to just treat him as an ordinary fren, everything start anew bah....and i mean it. from now on, wo dui ta ye bu hui zai you ren he qi dai....when i chatted with him just now, i see him as an ordinary fren and i feel so much better. ye xu bah...wad meant to be will be. bu xiang mian qiang....=) ok...since to treat him as an ordinary fren, i have to start to learn not to care for him too much. it will be a whole new start =)today afternoon lesson cancelled. went for bowling with friends after child care. hehe...it's my first time but eh...it's fun =)
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