Thursday, June 08, 2006
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Hey! oKoK...i know that it had been a long time since i blogged. LOL. yesterday was his 17th birthday. so fast...it had been one year. I was being quite emotional actually, when i listened to my mp3 songs on the way to school, i felt so much like crying the moment i thought of him. practically on every sentimental songs.LOL. I had never wished him happy birthday becuz his birthday always lies on the holidays. Thus, i had not give him any wishes before. not even once. perhaps i dun have the courage to go to him and say " happy birthday"as well . i noe i'm useless and i hate myself a lot for this ler. In any case, i will never have the chance again. never ever....
I still remembered very vividly in my memory the sweetest birthday he had given me. It's when i was in sec 2. He's those kind of guy who will never give any girl a birthday present...i think even for his guy friends, it's very rare too. i didn't expect anything from him either. however, he is willing to share a winnie pooh bear with my good friends. I was truly erm...touched when i received it. Up till now...the bear still means a lot to mii. it's the first gift, yet the last gift ever.
People said that i was being sooo stubborn to refuse letting go of him. once again, i didn't want to be this stubborn as well. I wanted so much to let go and i have been coming up with all sort of execuses to convince myself that letting go is the best. I really did my very best to start anew...but guess it wasn't easy at all. will it ever be possible for me to love this much in the future? i doubt so...
argh!! 1 more day to my term break! faster come larh!! i want the time for myself...to do things i like and sleep!! i need the break so badly ok....poly life totally drained me out...but i guess term break just mean that i can sleep a little longer in the morning ONLY cuz there are soo many projects to complete. =(
love all my friends!! =)
I confessed my love for BABY at
3:12 PM
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