Jiro Wang!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006
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...Hey! today is the happiest moment of my whole life. even in dreams...i also can't believe i will do this. i got his number ytd night....and after loads of struggle and hesistation...i sms-ed him today during break. BUT i didn't dare to press the 'send' button. I asked my fren to press. I guess i really DID over-reacted. when he replied the first sms...i practically jumped up from my seat and left all my friends stunned and asked me, " wad's wrong? wad's wrong?". sorry....didn't mean to shock u all. just tt i really didn't expect he will reply...

We had a short conversation ahx..and it was really more than enough for me. just to send the sms...i used up mostly of my courage and strength. i felt so tired after the smses. i asked for his msn. he was online and we chatted for awhile, den he suddenly went offline and didn't come back le. nvm...it's a good start after all. just to be his friend...i'm contented le.

I really have no idea where i got the courage to find him back...hahax. it's really weird to start talking to him now...when i didn't even talked more than 5 lines to him this 5 years. i miss him...seriously. but somehow...i'm afraid we might have nothing to talk at all and in the end....totally lost contact again. i have no confidence in myself actually BUT this is the 2nd chance...i can't afford to let myself regret again...i will jia you!!

It doesn't matter even if he likes another girl now or even have gf now,perhaps..to now...this is not the most important to mi. can find him back and be his friend matters most le. zhi yao ta kai xin...jiu hao. wo zhi dao wo hui ai de hen xing ku....i noe i will feel tired always being the one to talk to him BUT...all i need now is just to be his friend, at least i can still noe how he's getting on...btw, thanks yeeling for helping me!! =) and yeelin & joyce for accompanying me todae!! =)

hope this is the first but not the last....

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:30 PM

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Monday, June 26, 2006
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Hello! today is kaiqiu's birthday! Happy 17th birthday!! today after school....yeeling and me went to meet kaiqiu after school. As Kaiqiu had her attachment @ sengkang...yeeling and me went to shop @ westmall while waiting for her. When she came...we walked all the way to `vanillia` house downstair becuz * secret*...at first intended to have dinner at the coffeeshop there but there's really no food...so we walked all the way back to westmall. kaiqiu~~ hope u enjoy ur birthday!! =)

I chatted alot with yeeling today. chatted alot abt `him` and i almost cried when i thought of how much she had done for me and him. this 5 yrs...she has been so supportive of me. she believes so much that wo hui xing fu. if without this friendship...wadd will become of me. we were laughing at how funny he was...when i laughed until i broke into tears. at that instant...i felt that wo hen xiang, hen xiang zai zhao hui ta. yeeling told me tt she can help...perhaps just this try bah. we onced said that `wo men hui yi qi xing fu`. yeeling...actually if u r happy and xing fu...i will be happy all the same.

only till today, i realised just how much i miss sec sch. just so much....tht times we shared helping each other out, giving encourages. Yeeling, xie xie ni~ there's alot i really dunno how to say. but i will always noe...when i wanna cry, there's alway ur shoulder. you are just like a family to mii. thanks!! friends forever! =)

I confessed my love for BABY at 9:12 PM

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Friday, June 23, 2006
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Hey! it had been so long since i updated my blog le hor. haha =p. I got so much to say larh...BUT i am just so lazy to write. lalala~ hahax. oK...I shall write about wadd happened during this 1 week plus. =) please bear with this longLONG entry :P

hmm....last weekend, i went to chalet with my family. hehes, it was not too bad! at the very least, i can put aside all those STUPID assignments and not think about anything. hahax. on saturday...I went to cycle with my cousins and brother. oK...i admit I was NOT very good at cycling lar...hahax :P well, sat night, we had the bbq. and the food...was yUmmyYUMMY!! hehe, this is the 1st chalet that i did not stay up late till 3 or 4am. I went to sleep at ard 1...guess really tired out by the school term. On sunday, I dragged my biao`jie to go out. We at first wanted to go kbox @ Tampiness but who noes, the Kbox there had moved. So no choice, we went shopping instead!! hehe...didn't buy much things larh but i treat her to Sakae Sushi becuz...I realised I had never given her a treat :P

ahah! here comes the best part! On monday,19/6...we, ECH had this captainball interclass competition. and guess wadd? we got the champion!! woohoo~ hehe. the last match was really tough but we won it by 60 vs 18. isn't that great?? me and my friends cheered so hard for them during the matches!! it had been so long since I shouted so much :P. actually...i'm touched, as in I saw the team spirit and sportsmanship in our class during this competition. We played as a class! in any way, I love my class and 1A01 rocks!! hehex...the whole ECH rocks too!!

Hmm...and on tuesday, i met up with kaiqiu @ Lot 1 to have lunch and chit-chat. ever since we are in poly, we REALLY didn't have time to meet up and talk. so sad~~hahax but anyway, i really have a good time with her. We talk so much and that was like...soSo nice~ kaiqiu, rmb, i miss you larh!! hahas...and yeeling, i believe that's fate for u 2. I'm really happy for you and no matter what, I'm always there for you! i will support ur every decision! from the start of our friendship, this has always been my promise to you. yao xiang xin zi ji! i miss u too =)

Some of the days were spent on doing projects. i'm REALLY tired by projects ler larh. Hope i can complete ALL of them soon~ though there is no common test for ECH, but i think projects are more irritating larh! sch is opening soon....hais!! it's ok..it's ok. I can manage! I can do it!

Hehe...gotta have my kbox session this weekend ler!! yea! yea! =p

I love MIKE HE JUN XIANG!

I confessed my love for BABY at 2:03 PM

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
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Hey! my long awaited entry is here. hahax LOL. I just finished watching the vcd " eR mO zAi sHeN bIaN" that eda had lent me. it is a veryVERY nice show, as in it touches my heart alot alot. the love he jun xiang has for yang cheng lin is just so strong and sweet. no matter wat lies ahead of them, their determination to be together never once got moved. They believe that as long as they like each other, they should overcome all to fight for their own happiness. I felt so sad at the last episode that i cried non-stop. it's really sad...i have no idea why i get this sad and cried such lot, perhaps for the 2 of them who refused to be beaten down by destiny or becuz i knew inside, in reality, such true love will never exist...

watever, i'm officially in love with MIKE HE JUN XIANG!! he's just sooo shuai and gentle!! =) pple...MUST catch " eR mO zAi sHeN bIaN" wor! don't miss such a good show wor!! she told me that she had nv actually liked him before, just that she saw the shadow of the one she like on him. it wasn't wrong of her. wadever is the case. now that she had found her new love, i felt happy for her. perhaps it's wrong to nv confess the truth, but if she's happy now, just let it remain unsaid.

hmm...TONS of projects to be done. HOLS are supposed to be relaxing and fun? no..it isn't the case now. anyway, pple enjoy ok? =)

wo zhen de hen tong ku larh! fang bu fang qi dou yi yang arh..wo dou bu kuai le! yao wo jie shou ni yi jing li kai, wo yong le wo shuo you de li qi!! ni dao di yao wo zhen yang zhuo arh!! wo bu zhi dao zhe yang de wo hai neng deng duo jiu...ni cen jing wen rou dui guo de ren bu shi wo... wo yi jing dao le wo de ji xian le!!! wo lei le..wei she me ai ni de ren shi wo!?!?! ni zhi bu zhi dao xiang qi ni....wo jiu jue de zi ji kuai yao peng kui le!!

I LOVE MIKE HE JUN XIANG!! =)

I confessed my love for BABY at 10:50 AM

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Thursday, June 08, 2006
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Hey! oKoK...i know that it had been a long time since i blogged. LOL. yesterday was his 17th birthday. so fast...it had been one year. I was being quite emotional actually, when i listened to my mp3 songs on the way to school, i felt so much like crying the moment i thought of him. practically on every sentimental songs.LOL. I had never wished him happy birthday becuz his birthday always lies on the holidays. Thus, i had not give him any wishes before. not even once. perhaps i dun have the courage to go to him and say " happy birthday"as well . i noe i'm useless and i hate myself a lot for this ler. In any case, i will never have the chance again. never ever....

I still remembered very vividly in my memory the sweetest birthday he had given me. It's when i was in sec 2. He's those kind of guy who will never give any girl a birthday present...i think even for his guy friends, it's very rare too. i didn't expect anything from him either. however, he is willing to share a winnie pooh bear with my good friends. I was truly erm...touched when i received it. Up till now...the bear still means a lot to mii. it's the first gift, yet the last gift ever.

People said that i was being sooo stubborn to refuse letting go of him. once again, i didn't want to be this stubborn as well. I wanted so much to let go and i have been coming up with all sort of execuses to convince myself that letting go is the best. I really did my very best to start anew...but guess it wasn't easy at all. will it ever be possible for me to love this much in the future? i doubt so...

argh!! 1 more day to my term break! faster come larh!! i want the time for myself...to do things i like and sleep!! i need the break so badly ok....poly life totally drained me out...but i guess term break just mean that i can sleep a little longer in the morning ONLY cuz there are soo many projects to complete. =(

love all my friends!! =)

I confessed my love for BABY at 3:12 PM

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