Jiro Wang!

Thursday, May 25, 2006
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Hey! it has been so long since i update my blog? been too busy and lazy to update. allright...i went to watch the movie " over the hedge" with boon shuang, belinda, eda and yanyan last monday! hehex...our afternoon lessons was cancelled because the teacher took urgent leave. it's so seldom that i can go off so early during mondays, cuz it's usually a full day. Before the movie start...we went to yoshinoya for lunch cuz we still have about 20 mins left and all of us felt hungry. the lunch was pretty nice ehx. The movie is sooo cute and funny. i enjoyed the movie very much =D.

After the movie, we went to take neoprints! niceNICE!. Eda brought along her friend's digital camera and we went taking photos over the places. I told her " dun u think we look like tourists ah???" hahax LOL! i LOVE the photos too. actually i am quite thankful that i'm in this class where all my classmates are so nice. BUT i miss my DEAR JVS friends! really a lot...

Haix....i sometimes really wonder if i had made the right choice to come to early childhood. perhaps i lack the passion for it. true enough...the things we are doing is different and perhaps much more interesting than the other courses but i'm overloaded with projects or assignments. imagine having to complete 4 projects by 9 june. it's killing me.

the girl told me that she dun like him lers...as that's no way she's able to see him. it's no use liking a person who is not in ur life anymore. yea...she's right. I admire her for putting down easily. I think with or without her...one day i still will give up. just that her words gave me the determination to that time. now, nothing will change ler bah... in fact....after putting down...i felt a little bit relieved...it's a stone i had been pressing on me for 5 yrs. but actually when i decided to let go, i still like you. the more i like you, the more i want u to have a new start. the more i want u to forget all abt me. becuz of this...i felt so tired. hope it will be a new start for the both of us =)

wo wei yi de yi han shi....bu guan wo hou lai yu jian duo sao ren dou zhi neng tan xi....dou BU SHI NI.

I confessed my love for BABY at 10:52 PM

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Monday, May 15, 2006
Y *030* Y

It's NOT worth believing in love...unless u met the right one to love. Somehow...at this point of my life, love is not worth my trust. where's the right one?? wadever!!!

Childcare day tmr!!! haix....i'm not feeling very excited abt it. perhaps tired? but i hope i will have a good time there tmr =) kids!!!

I confessed my love for BABY at 9:31 PM

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Sunday, May 14, 2006
Y *029* Y

Hey! I went for the Hepatitis B jab today . though it's my second injection....i still find it so scary especially when the doctor was preparing the injection. eeks! hahax...still got another one which is 6 months away from now. goodness! just one month i can forget totally abt my this injection. wadd abt the third one? gOd...please give me better memory. hahax!

After my injection, i went to Jurong Point to shop for things. mothers' day present for my mum, bdae present for my dad ( it's a belated one..OoPs! ) cuz i don't have time last week to go shop for it and my aunt asked me to buy a laptop casing for my cousin on behalf. and yes! how great am I..i did my shopping ALL in one hour. I bought a pure white wallet for my mum and it cost @ $29.90. yes! she loves it =p....my brother shares with mii. I asked him to share so i can pay a smaller share...hehex. And a shaver for my father. LOL.

when i go buy the laptop casing....the person said that for the brand...they have the ' scratch and win' card which can deduct a minimum of 5 bucks but he can't find it in the store after searching for ard 10 mins. He then asked me to leave my name and number so that he can contact me to go take when he find it. I was like " oK...". den his colleague asked " can i shun bian put ur number into my hp?"...i didn't reply. And the person said " don't disturb little girl lar...uncle!" . he's ard early thirties? hahax. the 3 of us laughed. LOL

Ehh...I felt so much better now. I'm not so confused at least. though it still hurts when i looK at the things he gave mii and think back....but this is life! chang tong bu ru duan tong...after all we won't meet ler bah. we had never started, thus there's no ending. all it can be is just a tiny fullstop. hahax. i shall stay " devoted" to my mac cafe guy now...LOL.

Happy Mothers' Day to ALL mothers! =)

I confessed my love for BABY at 12:10 AM

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Friday, May 12, 2006
Y *028* Y

Hey! went k-boxing with yeeling just now. my purpose is to fa xie larr. but i couldn't cry...no tears come out. until one song " wo ke yi ren shou" by xu jie er....i completely broke down. i cannot take it anymore!! never knew that rang aii hurts me so much. but after that....we became crazy and laughed at anything we talk. :P

ytd i was struggling whether i should let ling noe. but today i still told her. I told her the incident and that if i can choose...i really really hopes tt she will nv noe and can be happy always. but i know she will see it. finding it out herself is much more painful. i noe tt very well. i just hope that by telling her can at least lessen her pain a lil. and i didn't want to hide anything from her....yeeling! be strong =) i'm always here!!

ok!! a declaration after a chat with my mum. wo jue ding fang shou & wo hui xiao zhe fang shou =D. my mum is right. i had made up my mind to chen quan...so i shan't need to care how they fang zhan. a old quote " don't give up the WHOLE forest for a TREE!!'. i shall listen to her.." treasure the one who love u more!!". but horx...no one love me eh!?! nvm...my best friends love me!! and i love them too =D

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:43 PM

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Y *027* Y

Hey! i deleted the last entry. just how much i wish i can delete my memories of him too. I want to give myself a new start, nothing sad should be left behind. I understood that he and she is NOT an item now...and they didn't keep contact frequently now and perhaps like wadd some pple said...i shouldn't jump to conclusions and gave up him now as she might not really be the one he like. BUT i know it more than other pple. Their start is a step further than me...and even now they still have the means to keep contact, whereas i no longer can.

It's true that the 2 of them stands a greater possibilty yea? I thought over it these few days and surprisingly...i can be so rational. which i shouldn't be. i'd rather not reveal anything. why makes 3 pple suffer when i can suffer the pain alone. A new start is all i can give them...but how they develop is all up to them. this is the furthest i can go. I thought over all these so rationally that it's so unbelieveable to myself too. afterall it's 5 yrs? hahax..I will find someone who love me as much too...and when the day comes...i will be very happy too. I never gave up hopes on finding my true love. so frenz...dun feel sad for me ler....xinyi is not that weak! =)

I went to the zoo last sat wif my relatives and mum. I had so much fun! polar bear and penguins are so cute...hehe. i saw the snakes and i felt tt my hair stands. hahax...we took a lot of pics back! and my biao jie bought me a cute cute kangaroo de toy! so cute wor! love it! =P

I was transferred to the childcare at toh tuck road. somewhere near clementi larr. the place damn hard to find...spent so much time finding it. please pray for me that i will reach my destination successfully. hahax. I'm so nervous for tmr! pple please wish me good luck!!!

I confessed my love for BABY at 12:55 AM

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Thursday, May 04, 2006
Y *026* Y

Hey! CAO GE GARY ROX! I went to the cao ge's concert @ SP there. tHanks Karen & sherlene for getting the tickets for us =). i sneaked into the auditorium actually. i'm told by my cousin tt i need the student card to enter. i was like s***. den how are me and yeeling going to enter like this. i was thinking of telling them that i didn't bring my student card when my cousin borrowed the cards from her 2 GUY friends. she told me to stay calm and flash it...hahax. I asked yeeling in a jokingly manner that do i look like the guy in the pic....den i can tell them tt that's me when i have really short hair. LOL! in the end...they also didn't check...and i sneaked in successfully! oh great! =D

Cao Ge's really cute! i love his singing SoSoSo much! =D. i completely melted when he sang. so sweet~ esp when he sang " Shi Jie Wei Yi De Ni" and " Superwoman." he also sang unplugged songs. u noe...he sang " ting hai" by a*mei , " an jing & hei se you mo" by Jay Chou. I think he sang better than Jay Chou haha!! i really melted. how good if he's my boyfren. =) i will make him sing everyday for me =D

He's so cute eh! he twist and pose for people to take picture. He has a flu and his voice a bit affected so he apologised for the high pitch that he couldn't hit. BUT i think it didn't affect his performance at all!! LI HAI~ I got the urge to buy his album selling on the spot and let him sign LOL...i love him even more now! and OF CUZ his singing!! CAO GE ROX =)

I'm so sway today! shan't elaborate...hope tmr will be a whole new better day =) i'm tired of sch...seriously!

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:39 PM

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Monday, May 01, 2006
Y *025* Y

Hey! today is labour day...so yay!! no sch!! so happy cuz monday is a long day!! but horz...got make up lesson lar....sian~i had gone out during weekends...so there's nowhere for me to go today. save $$ also larr! somemore...i haven't read my notes yet.stayed at home to do assignment. haha!! but a whole stack of notes and i think i only read a few pages of it. i'll be more blur next lesson haha!

my cousin sent me an email. i appreciated that. he told me he missed the old me, hoping that i can return to the old me. thanks though! not to mention anyone...i missed the old me too. but when something's gone...it's gone forever. wo hui bu qu ler....wo zhen de hui bu qu ler. I can never have the same kind of mindset, same kind of mood anymore yea? sorry for that....but nevertheless....i can be happy in my own way now too! by appreciating pple's care & concern for me. i love u all! also by seeing my mac cafe guy. heheh~

tmr sch starts again! sian...BIG hais!

I confessed my love for BABY at 11:58 PM

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hey! something made my day today!! haha!! all right....i saw my mac cafe guy & his not-bad looking colleague. we discovered that they worked last sunday...so we went to try our luck today and we saw them! it's always a game of luck when it came to seeing them lol! me and yeeling gave them each a nickname a long time ago cuz we dun noe their names! me and yeeling on the crazy side...gave crazy nicknames! the mac cafe guy is called ' darling' and his colleague ' dear dear'! haha! just for fun lar =p

His colleague serve us today and he was so cute!! LOL. he became tanned but that made him 'shuai-er'. =p haha!! tmr public hols...no sch!! yay! only one week of sch and i'm seriously tired out!

Hmm...for pple who had read this entry ytd....i deleted the last paragraph. here comes the new one...haha!! all right...I had shut myself up in my own world...ever since he left me. ever since poly started and everything changed. i refused to let people know wadd i really felt...i thought i will be fine in my own world..thus i always appear all right. to deceive others or even myself.

BUT since last night...I realised i still have relative, dear friends who truly cares. I thought someone who is my closest loved one care for me only becuz of obligation...but it turns out i think too much. my dear friends came telling me they cares. I noe they cares from their heart and tt's enough. good enough to keep me going. I will try my best to open up...though it's hard to do it now. once again..i'll be strong. i'm really ok now =)...thanks friends!

I confessed my love for BABY at 12:58 AM

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