Hey! my mood now is blue. seems that something in me is going to outburst. i just feel stressed. over studies? over....wadever? i'm not even sure myself. i felt lost....i'm adapting well to my poly life and my new friends but something just seems to be missing from my life. i felt tt the happiness i had in the past was missing. the true happiness.

I can't seem to laugh wholeheartedly at sch. i miss my sec sch times. i noe one shud look forward and not back. but i can't do it..at least my true friends are always there for me when i felt lost in sec sch. they are always there to talk to me. i know they are still there for me like always =)....but i can only face it myself in POLY. I miss them!! it's a terrible feeling to feel alone...haiis. BUT xin yi will be strong. very strong! i can stand up and face the problems in poly. perhaps being really adjusted to poly life now is difficult...dan shi wo hui jian qiang. dear friends....i noe i still have ur support though =)

my cousin talked to me just now in msn. telling me and encourage me to be strong and walk on in life. i cried. I nv cried before when he talk to me....this is the first time. perhaps...i just need to fa xie yi xia...lol.

*my biggest mistake is to fall in love with someone i shouldn't. my biggest regret is tt i never get to say my love for you. my biggest heartpain is thinking of you when u r no longer here*