Hey! i was both happy and sad today....and it's to the extreme. seems dilemma eh....i didn't want this to happen too. let me explain bah....today yeeling and me met to go for a haircut...we now have this habit to pass by mac cafe whenever we go to jp...well just to try our luck. and it was so lucky today that i saw the BOTH of them. haha! the 2 shuai ges worked today. i at first saw the shuai ge's not bad looking colleague den i was like thinking'' huh...the shuai ge wasn't there!!' but SUDDENLY i saw a familar figure inside and there he was! hahas we were super happy!

thus after our haircut...we went to mac cafe and sat for a drink. we sat the nearest to them as usual!!! hahas i think we were pretty obvious cuz the way we sat was quite funny lar....imagine we sat just side by side and 2 empty seats in front of us? will pple ever sit this way lol. but if i sat opp yeeling...i can't see him ler mah! =p....so after 45 mins...we left. i still felt happy to see the both of them! ` shuai-ges`!!

the sad thing is....i saw *him* at jp! i also dunno whether i shud consider this a sad thing OR a happy thing. i was going to a shop tt sells computer gadgets cuz i need to buy a slip case for my laptop. suddenly yeeling pulled me and said ' eh..tt's *him*!!' i can't see him....but he's only a few steps in front of mii. when i saw him...i immediately ran away. as i ran away....i cried. i dunno y i cried either....perhaps i was really shocked to see him AGAIN when i thought i will nv have the chance. but lucky i managed to control myself and didn't break down.

However i think he saw us long before we noticed him....cuz as i ran away....he looked @ our direction. he's with his family...but wonder y he don't look at all like them! haha! i did not noe wat to do...yeeling told me' go face him bah...i'll be with you' but in the end i still lacked the courage to face him. i told yeeling ' even if give me a lifetime...i still can't face him' which i hate myself so much! i let him go ONCE again!! i dunno y he keep coming back whenever i thought i had lost him! but if he's gone....please be gone forever! i can't stand the toments whenever i saw him AGAIN! wo shou bu liao!

tmr sch gonna start ler...so fast. almost 6 mths holidays had passed. i'm not sure if i had prepared myself for it...but i truly hope tmr will be a good start for me! pple...pls bless me! sorry tt this is a long long entry......cuz today is a very happening day for me!! i wanted to write it down =p