Hey! this night is a terrible night for me....guess i will have a sleepless night. i underwent great depression tonight....nv felt this worse. all the heartbreaking memories came back to me. whether it's once sad or happy memories....to me now...it's all heartbreaking and pointless. i thought i had forgotten and gotten over it...yuan lai zhi shi wo bu yuan yi xiang qi ta. perhaps...wat i had for him is no longer love...it's just si nian. the missing kind of feeling is so strong and overwhelming that i nearly lost control. he gave me a lot and taught me a lot. i will nv forget them and *him*. yes.i cried...yin wei wo hen xiang ta. BUT. i promised myself that this entry will be the last one i wrote and feel sad for him. after this no more. i hope i can do it. hopefully! it's hard...

ThAnKS `my dear friend` for listening to me tonight =) you are the best! * muacks*

maybe...like wat my friend told me ` my biggest mistake is to love him too much`. yeap...it's a mistake. i shouldn't had been so stubborn. all this while...i dun even want to admit the fact that i'm letting him go but yes...this is wadd i have to do. to totally 'si xin'.even till now...i still hope to see him...to see whether if he's doing well. i juz want him to be happy. but if not seeing him is the only way to let me forget...i'd rather never to see him again. zhe bei zi dou bu yao zai jian. i wrote this entry....whether you can see or not...i'll like to say..' i will put everything to the end'

after tonight...i will be a happy ger! i will! =)

`ai shang yi ge yong yuan bu zhi dao wo ai ta de ren...yuan lai shi zui tong ku der`